life updates for anyone who cares

being pregnant is lowkey ghetto

the past two weeks have been weirdly tiring and just moody. i hate not doing anything.. but it really could be my holiday laziness that happens every summer holidays.

i just enrolled in my units before i continued this entry and realised i have to do three units on top of my newborn baby idk how i will do it but i hope to Dear God that i can.

moreover, its crazy how inspirational andrew tate has been for me. not his cars or his girls, but his self-confidence like not to believe in him is stupid.. usually you feel stupid for believing in somebody but honestly youre stupid if you dont believe in him. ive joined his realworld thing and i really think it might be a mix of underwhelming and very educational for me - i havent told my husband yet about it bc i just dont think he needs to know.

but i need to know. i need to learn amazon FBA and amazon affilaites really needs to be used up by now on my website. i hope that when i see other people getting results, it will really inspire me to do the same.

like the matrix really shot AT with their last bullet, and now hes standing, i will honestly cry when he dies and if he dies thru the matrix - i will really mourn him. bc hes been such a big help to me - and he doesnt even know it. maybe he doesnt even think it important bc im a woman and whatnot, but idc i feel inspired bc of him, now i KNOW for a fact there is smth to escape so i will escape it... i will escape with my family - with my husband and my kids, but the only way to do that is to get rich. 

thats the harsh reality, if you dont have money, you cant make any difference and AVA now that you have NO summer units, you need to stop mourning about like a stupid pregnant lady about your damn hormones, and you need to get to work - like fr fr. 

like if you truly believe in this mission, put your money where your mouth is and stop waiting for 'inspiration' to strike, dont be a dumbass. real things that make real money are not smth you have to be 'passionate' about. seriously. you just have to make money and you gotta make money so you cna chillax and THEN do what youre acc passionate about. but for now, you gotta start off with this health blog, and tbh you are passionate about it but the thing is... youre starting to feel a little overwhelmed bc of the info thats out there as well as how little you know and how much you wanan talk about ... the discrepancy is there.

but you can have medium-size articles and you can always make a separate post about the same topic in more detail... just dont derail in to too much detial unnecessarily.

but seriously you gotta focus on this brand bc literally everything is lucrative if you just put your mind to it. idk how im gonna do this after a baby but ik inertia is the hardest thing to start and hardest thing to end... but just starting it is important even if i only write 200-300 words a day... thats fine. bc im publishing weekly or bi-weekly depending on the topic. so it shouldnt be hard to maintain. but i seriously have to build this habit instead of wasting my time on youtube watching others succeed, i need to start succeeding and put the same energy into myself