life updates for anyone who cares

fall in love overseas

ive realised how badly i want to go to the uk. i can physically feel it calling me.. and i feel like ive acc always lowkey felt it.

after i go to malaysia in july-august to study psychology... i cant wait to go to the uk to do the leftover law units. but ye apart from that, ive just felt disassociated and this covid-19 quarantine is driving me kinda crazy.

i feel like im supposed to fall in love overseas.. which is probably part of the reason i really want to go to the uk. idk i just have so many places to visit. im trying to do so much in this quarantine but im so tired of all this screentime... ive never felt  so disgusted with myself so i think im gonna turn my phone off or hide it in my closet...

btw i started following my dreams and started making tiktoks... once i blow up its over for y'all hoes, but apart from that... my goals are to learn marketing via copywriting (thru my internship at GAO Tek)and facebook blueprint and try my luck at online marketing which honestly isnt as hard as it seems. but i think im just struggling with manifestation which has been dampening my spirits ironically. i struggle with the detachment... either i attach too much or not at all (which is good) but i feel like im not gonna manifest in this way? if that makes sense.

ive been watching aaron doughty and his videos on attracting love (which is changing your frequency/vibration) and hes completely right. if i depend my happiness on once i get 'that person's approval' im not gonna get anywhere. i have to remind myself that everything is temporary; people, their approval and their disapproval. whereas Allah is forever, has always been and will always remain - and whose approval we should seek and yearn for. this is why ive started to revise my quraan bc i felt ashamed that i didnt even know a single juz by heart.. so im fixing that this quarantine.

i also have to start picking my units for semester 2 which is difficult when malaysia is far away.. and this quarantine is obviously making people even less timely than usual. and im also excited to invest but the brokerage company still hasnt contacted me and im afraid they're gonna make me miss this opportunity of very cheap stocks but ye i might call them. damn now that ive written this entry im actually super proud of myself.

while its hectic and crazy, i appreciate that im still trying to make the most of this quarantine by actually trying to become smth. apart from spending too much screen time... im on the right path and especially when i think of where i was a year ago.. literally depressed ah and all my days were blended into one another alhamdulilah Allah got me thru it but  ye.

i just gotta keep my head up and use my time wisely. so starting today.. my new rules are NO PHONE AFTER 11.30 (which i will slowly bring back to 11:00) and sleeping until 12:00-12:30 NO LATER THAN THIS....

also i remember my life used to be so blissful when i didnt look at my phone for longer than 5 mins after waking up so i gotta start doing that again. IN SHAA ALLAH

life is truly so beautiful and im so grateful to Allah for giving me the opportunity to reach my potential. i will be on tv shows and my podcast will be very influential, firstly national and then INTERNATIONAL.

bish we going INTERNATIONAL. thats frkn crazy and i cant wait to go on flights/hotels/meetings/stock meetings/my own psychologist clinic/my own relationship counselling business