life updates for anyone who cares

clarity

so it became real clear why rishta #1 didn't work out. maybe my mind is trying to close the chapter (thank god) or it really is the case.

so my mum and sister went to the doctor's and found his youngest sister working there, who didnt acknowledge them until much later and was awkward about it.

im annoyed that everyone around me is making such a big deal about it not working out.. like hes just a dude... uhm????

anyways and she was wearing a tight white shirt and jeans (mind you, she is CURVY) and very attractive so i dont see how the rishta isnt aware of how his sister dresses. the fact is shes younger than him, the least he should be advising her (and i hope to GOD he is) but the way he talked to me about how he thinks his wife should dress seemed quite urm.. strict. even tho i would naturally dress like that, not bc of him. but its still different when someone EXPECTS you to dress however you already dress .. it seems less like its about you and more about them.

and then later tonight, his psychologist sister posted some dumbass sh*t about a scantily-dressed woman and a fully covered woman and had empowered under both of them. i was pushed to absolute insanity at the stupidity. as a frkn PRACTISING psychologist you should know that self-objectification acc leads to worse achievement and more self-esteem issues. are we just gonna act like that girls dont go thru that to soothe our egos? anyways i got really mad at that and no offense but i couldnt live with people who thought/dressed like that.

like come on a white T-SHIRT and JEANS? and you KNOW you curvy ????? in public???? im sorry i cant respect it. and i cant respect it especially bc ik shes a hafiz of the quraan just like the rishta was. i can expect he cant "change" or even "advise" his older psychologist sister but he should be advising his youngest sister ... infact both brothers  should be.

but anyways thats none of my business.

im surprised he told me he didnt want me to be anywhere close to the front counter but his sister is an admin ... (tbf, he didnt mention admin, he meant more like customer service) idk what the difference would be, bc he mentioned anywhere where "young men (aka 18 yos) are present"

anyways i think i just feel sorry for him. its like its him and his mum and his sisters on the other side. i hope he gets married to someone who gives him comfort and solace bc he deserves it. i really do want the best for this guy. ik it didnt work out but rn i just want to give him the biggest hug and kiss him on the cheek and let him know he doesnt have to do it alone and to get married (but its  not gonna be me <3)

aww now i feel like kissing him :'(((((( poor guy. damn i hope he has a good week ahead of him bc he deserves it as someone who has memorised the quran and takes cares of both his parents. may Allah preserve him :))))