life updates for anyone who cares

progress in 2020 goals

TODAY , i would consider it monumental since i stood up to my narcissistic half-sister's bratty behaviour patterns. as well as gave my half-brother his medicine by not responding..

it is true what they say; if you want to know what someone is really like; tell them no.

and thats what i said, i didnt say it to be spiteful.

im genuinely busy and i have an exam coming up in 4 days and all she's worried about is her kmart run, and maybe it really is minor. but you can't just tell me you wanna go somewhere and i just start driving like wth this isn't heaven and i wish it was - but suck it up.

and obviously my half-sister is so childish,  she told  everyone on her twitter that follow every  word that she says - they acc worship her lol

anyway, i just wanted to let you guys know, that program 'boundaries' is in full effect and im proud of myself of not saying sorry like i usually do. that wouldn't show conviction and it would show that im desperate for her and honestly i dont like her at all atm and i dont think i will after i realised what creature she really is.

wallah she would acc die from lack of attention. which is why she's always on twitter - she's so happy bc everyone worships her on that app. and that's cool, but she's not gonna get that disgusting dynamic from me.

i have to be okay with people not being okay or happy with me for every second of every day.

and sometimes, you have to treat people how they treat you instead of treating them like how your character dictates - that's how you get disrespected. and i would rather be the villain of the story than be the dung under my shitty sister's fugly toes.

i remember the last  time she apologised to me was 1 and half years ago so ye - she can die mad.

can you believe this imbecile makes me wanna get married? like i acc wanna leave the house so i can get away from her and her leeching energy.

she doesn't want anything but attention and like i said before, if we took away her twitter for a week - she would spiral into madness and moodiness.

another thing that happened during this week is a***, the 'friend' of mine  - acc let's call her a client bc i don't trust her and thank god i  don't bc she's the type to tell everyone your business the  moment a little hiccup between you two happens.

and also i think i felt jealous bc she was giving my half-sister more attention than she was giving me even though i literally help her every step of the way with her parents or any problem she has - but i realised that im her therapist and shes just a client. and im fine with that - i have to be bc otherwise i'd have to trust her and that, i can't do.

and what pissed me off is that my half-sister and her were talking about twitter the entire time..

see? i told you.

my half-sister does NOT have a personality.

she never has and she never will.

why? bc she has always been a blank slate of nothing.

no care about anyone else in the world.

no care about anyone at all.

talking out her ass all day about loving family.

may Allah guide her.

and a*** is stupid  enough to think my half-sister is talking to her bc she's 'interested' in what she has to say but what i also know about a*** is that she's a popularity leech. the typical 'im so quirky, i need to be popular' so they latch onto 'popular' people  loooool.

i wish her the best in her stupidity. both are them are dumb af and deserve each other.

btw: update. i came back on twitter and i didn't know what my sister's @ was so that i could follow her, so i casually mentioned it and asked her what her @ was so i could follow her and then she's like "oh i saw that you have the account' and then i asked her if she followed it and shes like "i  DiDnT KnOw iF yOu wAnTeD tO bE fOlLoWeD" ????????? b*tch why the f would i  be on public if i didnt wanna be followed??

anyway ik the real reason she said that is bc SHES the one who doesn't wanna be followed, so she tries to reflect her feelings onto me so that its my idea when acc she thinks im the same old basic b*tch whos gonna ask her what shes crying about on her twitter - but shes dead wrong LOL nah im not gonna chase her attention-seeking antics anymore.

she can be depressed on her own idc, lol, let her find her prince charming thats gonna save her from herself. lets see how that works out for her.

new goal: be okay with people being mad at you, especially if it's at the expense of your self-respect. no relationship that is based on disrespect is healthy.