basically ye. ik things are how they are and obviously theyre not preferable. the fact that my husband has no idea what he likes or what he wants to do with his life does not help the situation... but at the end of the day. the only way thru is thru... and ik his family doesnt really give us the support that we need. nobody cares to ask and nobody cares to even help out.
im resentful at my FIL for not helping my husband or any of his children figure out what their strengths and weaknesses are and how they can use that for career progression. i have a stress belly rn and i wanna lose it asap... my wedding is in MAY fgs. im not taking this seriously at all.
i gotta meal prep, fast 15-16 hours and then train moderately, not too hard where everything hurts. i do gotta do more cardio too. i really got to start taking care of myself. but honestly there is no need to feel overwhelmed ... things take their time but as long as every little step is towards the direction of fitness and being lean and THIQQQQQ at the same time.
ive started some professional development and global leadership program at my uni and im doing sharia course as well as 2 law units, so im quite busy atm.
im doing cooking and starting to meal prep - sort of not really tbh. rn im just tryna finish the meat in the freezer bc damn there is so much.
but ye tbh, i realised that i can hANDLE this crap, like well and truly and ill still have time for other things like me time and chilling time. im also doing files for my dad and that is being done while im trying to balance everything. but really ava, you gotta plan out your meals. part of the reason im kinda not doing it is bc my husband only gets his paycheck every two weeks and so... but anyway, i really gotta plan it if i want to see any type of difference.
so far, this is the plan:
- eat two big meals everyday
- fast 15-16 hours
- stop eating at 5-5:30
- work out at gym 3 times a week
- pilates 3 times a week
- skipping twice a week for 10-15 mins
-skipping after gym till the count of 100
can you believe all these steps for ONE goal? damn
but i really gotta look fit for my wedding, no ifs or buts, i really gotta look frkn SMOKIN' im already really good looking. but ever since i came of birth control, i really gotta regulate myself naturally bc the bloating... is not a joke
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