life updates for anyone who cares

coming off the birth control + holidays

so we went for holidays this past week and it was a lot of fun since we went to port macquarie and i went to the ocean water after a good 5-8 years and i finally swam in it and it was a lot of fun with my husband and his family. 

then me and my husband went to newcastle and a had a lot of our own fun on nobby's beach and then we had this soft serve dipped in sherbet which was amazing. we used electric bikes where i faced the biggest scare of my life when i went down a very steep hill (which scares me even when im in a car) but i did it on a bike!!! and i was so happy that i did!!! and then i fell when my bike tyre go stuck in the tram tracks lol but honestly it didnt hurt as much as i thought it would 

then we went to weabonga with my family which was very fun bc we didn't have internet or any reception and we had to face our demons with no distractions such as social media. and i realised that i wasnt enjoying it as much as i wanted to or i could.

and its all bc of my birth control. ik when smth is psychological/spitirual and when its physical or vitamin deficiency and i want to make a gp appointment tomorrow and get a gyno referral. bc i dont want to feel like crap during my whole relo and then again post-partum depression after birth  i cant be sacked for all this depression.

i wanna get a copper iud asap bc sack this hormonal birth control pill, not worth it.

anyways, besides the point. im listening to humraah and this whole movie reminds me of my husband and i love it so much for this reason. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJBHSmyqv0Y