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rishta #2 dream

so i had a bad dream about rishta #2 but it was pretty much a manifestation of how scared i felt in that room with him... hopefully nothing serious.

but the dream was that i was checking his background obvs doing my due diligence investigating him and then i found some dirt on him where he had beat up a woman with a newspaper to where one of her eyeballs had left her socket and her other eye was internally bleeding.. so safe to say i was quite scared.

and when i searched up the incident thats the details i found. i met up with his old schoolmates and confirmed the story and they replied that yes that was him who had beat up the woman. i visited the train station and the escalator he had done it at... and then he came to me and caught me digging his past and basically stopped me and came to me and held both my hands and told me "ive changed. i dont do that anymore" and smiled at me.

but i was freaked out and tried to break free but couldnt bc obvs he does martial arts, is 6'2 and goes to the gym... not to mention he is a man.

but anyway i had that dream monday, it is now wednesday and i feel that it has no real basis and is probably just my sunconscious releasing the fear that i felt being alone in the room with him.

he was  super respectful, his parents are good too and i dont think hes witnessed that type of environment so i dont think he is like that

but i tried not to tell my family but i couldnt help it and i thought maybe it was an answer to my istikhara so i spilled it to them and my dad became concerned obviously... so now my family is hell-bent on finding out how he deals with his anger and conflict resolution. i dont want my dad to outright ask him "has there been a time you've beat someone up?" bc the rishta is going to be hella confused like... where is this coming from?

and now that ive had two days to cool off.. i do feel it is important to reassure how he deals with his anger or disagreements regardless of my dream but i just dont want him to know about the dream bc i genuinely dont think he is like that. but still to be on the safe side we will still be interviewing him in shaa Allah