life updates for anyone who cares

"if you don't plan for it - you don't own it!"

maybe majority of the reason LOA "works" is bc people are WRITING IT DOWN. doing things with intention is so important, and it all starts with writing. until you write your plan, you will never know if it makes any sense at all and thus you wont make real moves towards it, you will simply be the loser that thinks they will win.

one thing that stuck with me from Atomic Habits was ""winners and losers have the same goals" and i never even considered that. why would anyone compete in a race if they knew they were gonna lose? but who acc wins? the one who plans for it, the one who makes more than just a heartfelt intention and makes progressive steps towards it. 

today and yesterday i was thinking about going to hajj, moving out and travelling and all of these things and ik Allah will make it happen, but its not just the dua but the actual actionable steps we both have to take. 

i also need to really consider what my business/food blog is meant to 'resolve' or solve or whatever. i really need to spend time to think about it. even tho i got the Research Assistant position, and im so grateful for it, but i realised its not my purpose or passion or whatever. it is just a means to my end - which is obviously research about food, lifestyle and etc.

so im very grateful for it bc it will give me the credentials i need and the respect that people have for that research will make them understand and really consider that i have experience in research and im not just talking out my bum. but i can understand why people may think that.

i think im realising alot of things lately, and its all thanks to reading books like "the E myth" and "how to win friends and influence people" and its expanding my mind. makes it easier for me to stop talking about people, and start talking about ideas etc.

so, my other book "manifestation diary" etc. i want to rename the "my dua diary" bc i dont want to ruin my Islam, but also  in it i plan to write the steps i need to make - even as little as 20 mins a day to see real results.

for eg. i started to incorporate more core stabiliser workouts in my routine, doesnt take me more than 10 minutes, but it helps me heaps. not just in the gym when im trying to "feel" my core, but in general, and it makes me look tighter. and this is all i need to do and its only 10 mins a day! thats nothing.

im having quite a bit of fun seeing how a little reading, a little ab workout, a little maintenance in the house or a little cooking is helping me accelerate in all of these life skills. even the project i was working on - the research internship - little by little, i made it and now i have a serious job offer. not a dumb receptionist or admin position but a real position! where i will learn more about research and its depths etc. and im so excited.

all my duas are coming true alhamdulilah, my duas for wealth and abundance are slowly opening up right in front of me. the moment i gave up control over my husband's situation and stopped saying "we're struggling financially" etc and just realised that im acc ok, alhamdulilah, im getting govt payments, which ye, its not much but its smth. and im doing everything that money can buy - microneedling, skincare, haircare, body care, even food and massages - what else do i need? i am truly rich and abundant. i am already "there" wherever "there" is, i am here and this is me and this is now. and im not struggling, i am happy, i am content, i am happy to be here whichever situation im in and im trying to move into a better position.

i just love seeing results no matter how 'tiny' but everything adds up slowly but surely, as long as you take it a day at a time. seriously, this is proof - that im living my life, im watching entflix, im waking up early, cleaning the house, cooking, seeing my parents, making time for my husband, my work and etc and exercise. so we can have it all - its all a lie they tell us that 'we cant have it all' when i know i can. i know i can, bc i do have it all. i have money, i have family, i have a beautiful husband and i have brains and ideas and things to do!!!! what is this, if not, having it all???

Thank you Ya Rabb, for giving me all this goodness, for blessing me with abundance already and most of all, for making me realise it. im truly so grateful for everything that you do for me and i hope i never forget your favour on me. ya Rabb pls make me grateful and pls give me more wealth so i can do more good with it - you know how im spending my money now, and i want to spend it like this even more. i want to help the ummah, my family other families and i just want to make people happy with money - i dont want to just hoard it away, i wanan have fun with it i wanna take people out with it, i wanna treat mama and baba with it, pls ya Rabb give me more so i can help more people - ya Rabb make me a bigger vessel so i can do better with money and ya Rabb pls give me a brain and heart that helps me deal with the wealth too, so i dont get lost in it, Ameen