life updates for anyone who cares

sister (again)

maybe y'all (all 1 of you) are tired bt i cant help it that this is my reality so y'all just gotta let me be. anyway my sister is your classic damsel in distress who entertains guys on the TL cONSTANTLY yet has the audacity to be like "pls boys dont have feelings for me"

and ofc our favourite: "no dms from men"

now the problem with this is, is that she knows what shes doing. she entertains guys (literally every tweet  she has to comment some smart arse sh*t and then the convo is literally 18+ tweets long and its all banter)

anyways and shes a hypocrite bc she  banters with random men ALL day yet plays victim when guys take that signal and dm her or 'fall in love' with her.

and ive stopped talking to her, almost completely, about things on twitter offline bc honestly i dont wanna have a relo with her. idc how that sounds idc at all.

but instead of hating on her for this; i decided to use this tactic in my ways of becoming a seductress; mixed signals.

they always work. but for me? respect is more important which is why i always find myself stuck in this place of damn should i be seductive or should i just be like subtle.

and obviously subtle is the way to go, and i feel like boys are stupid in this arena. ik what shes doing not bc shes told me (she would never do that) but bc ive noticed this trend among other girls who banter onLY with guys, complain about guys hitting on them and then write no dms from men on their bio and it sends a signal like "ah im so unattainable look at all these despos in my dms, ugh i cant seem to get away from male attention"

its such a predictable move and yet we all fall for it.

idk i kinda just wanted to write how shes extremely desperate so i didnt vent on twitter - bc i am leaving that behind.

one thing im letting myself do this year is make mistakes. its  okay to fall into  the age-old habits that  you've had for years. im still proud of you for trying to make a difference in your life even if it means you slip. you get  back up and you carry on and 'tis the  way of life; instead of overthinking it and just derailing all your progress, it is better to keep going

in other news, we are going PERTH. and im so happy but also very anxious bc i havent seen these people in literally 8 years and thats kinda unsettling.