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master compartmentalisers

ik for a fact that men are master compartmentalisers and this runs into their personalities aswell. this is why they have a hoe category, or a nightstand, or a wifey material categories. bc i believe that men can truly 'love' more than one woman. except that their love is different. their love is not identified by loyalty but instead by vulnerability, hence why women are judged in a worse way when they cheat than when men cheat bc i do believe that monogamy is a trap

i think men have a 'higher self' and a 'd*cky self' and i think they're both pretty self-explanatory.

their higher self knows what plastic surgery portrays and that it's acc not a very good solution to insecurity bc ik for a fact that even after i lost the weight (20 kg), i still FELT fat. I think there  should be smth called a 'former fat girl syndrome' (FFGS) bc i range around 60-70 kg for my height and that's relatively normal. im not incredibly thin or fat, im medium but i still am so insecure about fat idk why.

i think many FFGs know what i feel. its like you can never completely shed that FFG skin bc most of the time FFGs nicknames revolve around their cute, chubbiness for eg, mine is 'motu' and i dont think families mean to be condescending to our progress but essentially most FFGs enter the  gym bc of insecurity thinking a loss in weight will magically cure their insecurity  but newsflash.. it doesn't. and i think  it's the same with plastic surgery.

plastic surgery is just a really good (albeit flaccid) mask to cover up one's insecurities.. if i look good on the outside no one will notice the turmoil on the inside. and this is true of all those who got plastic surgery.. they either can't shut up about it ( i cured my insecurity artificially) or they just won't admit to it (consciously aware of their insecurity).

regardless, guys realise this. they're not stupid, contrary to popular belief, and if we think we can play by their rules and win? there is no chance in hell that will happen.

and i cant lie to you. feminism was true rebellion, ofc it comes with its shortcomings as any revolution does, for eg, patriatchy is not entirely a bad system (men take care of their wives, working is NOT a privilege and i acc do want  to have 5 kids) but obviously there is no harm in being guided by an alpha man's power. bc i can tell you rn, im only 20 and im TIRED of making decisions. deadass. i dont even have a job. its probably bc i truly tapped into my feminine energy. and these days the only reason i even converse with men, is to practice my feminine charm and then at the end i always make sure to ask 'do i sound feminine?' like some survey, lol.

point is, that rebellious energy is important. bc when men say they want a submissive wife, they do NOT mean a docile lamb with no opinions (cumdump if we're going to be colloquial)... if they say they do,  in the spur of the moment, thats their peen-talk. their higher self prefer a submissive wife (someone with opinions) who is willing to let go of their egos in some situations instead of a docile lamb (in bed) who just takes what they get in bed and is basically a 'yes d*ddy' throughout the interaction

i think it's important to keep men on their toes. men are responsible for women. this is a FACT and not up for debate... and the alpha men accept this... only until it stops serving them aka when women are savages and take 50% of their property (which btw happens both ways) and when women are promiscuous (bc men have hurt them or they just want to experience sexual 'freedom'). men don't want to understand that when they hurt women, they hurt generations down the line. and if they can only claim 'i am the  provider/protector of women' when it comes to cases of controlling where she goes, who she's with, who her friends are... men are not being true men.

point is, men cannot choose when to follow the narrative of protector/provider. men lead the way for generations. why do you think those that come from half families (no dad) are almost always broken in some way? even w/ all the effort from the  mother, there are just some voids that can only be filled with a father figure, end of. you cannot make a cake without flour even if you have the rest of the ingredients in tip-top condition. it is  not a complete cake.

men are responsible for both the good and the bad. and the truly alpha males in the red pill community, usually those who have never married or are not salty about it realise that women don't just go around divorcing men bc they feel like it. many of these truly woke men admit that divorce is a man's fault, after all, if you're going to claim responsibility over women like you would over a child - you can't do more than some reprimanding, thats all you have the power to do. and you cant just claim it when it fits your agenda (i wanna take over her in bed, i want her to submit to only me). women will not  just submit to anyone (unless she's a hoe or desperate for a relo). if youre not masculine enough to evoke her sexual desires or her want to please you, thats  a YOU problem and she is not 'supposed' to be loyal to you just bc you gave her some attention and therefore you think you own her.

btw that also doesnt make a lot of sense?

if i was a guy and i simply showed interest to a girl and she was head over heels for me.. i would a) KNOW  she's desperate so no boner for  me

b) KNOW that bc shes desperate, any man can have her attention and that's not cute

c) she's no different from a hoe bc all i had to do was say hello and she opened herself up to me without any promises/commitment and;

d) i don't want that for me

i wouldn't play by different rules for myself bc ik it hurts my ego. i would rather have a girl i can respect and trust that she won't give her attention to just anyone bc ik how hard i had to earn it (i say this as a hypothetical masculine and very high-earning man) so another man couldn't or would have to try a lot harder.

loyalty is not measured by how much someone commits to you BEFORE a relo, that's entitlement. i can respect entitlement that is based off of smth for eg, (i have a good business, good genes, im handsome etc) but most of these guys dont know how to hold their frame and are easily rattled by a woman's emotions, even the woman they like.

btw you might think that's cute, but we dont.

you can call your ex-wife anything you want darling, but we all know she left your obese and broke ass = bad sex btw.

im glad she took 50% of your assets, bc that's 50% of wasted time she could be using on someone more handsome, more desirable and more successful. cry me a river.

you wouldn't gladly stay with a woman who is overweight  or 'gets ugly' or whatever so don't expect her to stay just bc you think she should be loyal to you. complacency kills relos. and if men just think they 'deserve' loyalty just bc they are married to someone without any consistent effort into themselves/the relationship... you WILL turn out like those salty men that you see after divorce burns them and their assets and they call themselves red pill which, for some men, is a nice cover-up for being incels or mgtow.

they usually never remarry and are constantly talking about how they aren't controlled by the power of the p*ssy.. while using multiple p*ssies to forget about one p*ssy. its acc quite hilarious watching these men deny that oneitis is a thing that exists and every great man is not immune to it. i acc would say every great man is not immune to oneitis bc they understand they need one very strong woman to help them hold it together.

infact many great men are usually only with one woman in their entirety of a  successful careers, WITHOUT gaining weight, losing money and maintained sexual energy in the relos