life updates for anyone who cares

this is my path, and it is for me to forge

this is what i realised as i was coming from home to my parents house and just meditating and talking to myself in the car. 

the thing is, ive always been a weirdo, i was never 'cool' in school - and if i was it was everytime i wasnt being myself, or i got the guys behind me or whatever, not when i was truly weird. so, this is the way its supposed to be i guess, and ive learned to be okay with it.

ik when i make it and i make $50 million a year, nobody will ever say they thought i was weird etc, but we both will know the truth. another thing i realised today is that M.G and A.I both are clout chasers... not friends. and ik they'll be by my side and act like they "always believed in me" since the beginning when we both know they didnt.

anyways, so i was meditating and realising that Allah has put this dream in my head, made me a complete weirdo (and i feel fulfilled being a weirdo)  bc this path of food blog and us living in a matrix and me waking people up is MY role in life. it really is and it always has been - its just taken on different flavours at different points in my life.

when i was in yr 9, it was writing books (which i kinda started but lost passion for) or like just being on wattpad and creating a community, believing in feminism when iw as really young and no one around me really understood it. a

and now, with me constantly screaming that Allah has created disease and cure in this world, it is up to us to find it - and ik if i do my research with this attitude, there is CURE for EVERYTHING. literally everything except death.

And this is my mission, i realise as im typing this, this is my mission statement. my vision statement. Allah has not given us these numerous diseases bc there is no cure - He a hs given us the cure and HE wants ME to find it. 

little miss ava, solving world tragedies one sickness at a time. 

im truly so excited, nothing is too big when you have Allah on your side, and Allah's words to guide you. nobody thought i could be a Research Assistant in my undergrad year, in fact nobody, not even me believed it.

but now my goals are to PROVE to everyone, that the cure does exist, that you CAN reverse things or atleast manage them so well, you dont "feel" sick anymore. i need people to know this secret. this is the true secret. and im going to uncover all of it - with this research assistant position, i wanna go into neuropsych assessments and do research for them - at which point i will be looking at how to avoid neurodegenerative diseases with FOOD. how to heal the brain with FOOD. 

at which point i will have my own company doing such experiments, and proving to people they can heal themselves with food and remedies bc everything is already here. Allah has already give us the tools, but what an adventure it is to find it. what an adventure it is to conduct experiments on partcipating WILLING patients who are mine - and they undergo such experiments and feel like they've never been sick.

THATS my dream. my dream is not to earn the most dollars or have the biggest house, my dream is to make people realise that Allah never lies, Allah never promises smth that doesnt exist. and with that, i need to tell as many people as i can about this. idc if its "embarrassing" or not. idc if people think im a "fruit loop" bc when im making that money, and when im making that difference IN MY OWN WAY, people will all act like they always believed me.

just like how i saw in covid, my own family switched up on me, suddenly saying that they always believed the vaccines wouldnt work (they didnt) and im not saying you cant change your mind, but atleast dont act like youve always thought a certain way, to make a point of whatever, bc you just havent.

anyway, my intention is not to prove everyone wrong. its to prove everyone to believe in abundance, healing and that this world already has the cure to our problems, unless ofc the problem is death. that is not smth any human can "fix", or resolve bc it is unfortunately a part of life.

i feel so happy i finally have y vision statement and mission statement alhamdulilah