life updates for anyone who cares

husband

i need to find some way to balance my cleopatra dreams and my 'cuffed' dreams and make them come together.

a man that a woman is in love with has the power to break him... and i never wanna give away that power. i dont want to feel helpless and desperate for anyone... idc who it is. but esp, NOT a man.

this is mainly why i support polygamy... bc it will help me detach from him and allow me to do other things and pursue my own dreams instead of focusing on an annoying gorilla for the rest of my life.

this also gives me more room to hurt him and make him fall in love bc when he sees how unbothered i am by the fact that he likes other women, that will hurt him and even if he has sex with his co-wives... he will not be as hard with them as he will be with me.

he will try to act tough around me but miserably fail when he realises only i can make him go hard in seconds bc of the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i look at him, the way i serve him but still stay detached.

i need to be submissive but dominant just like the masculine Dandy - where all his senses are so turned on and that he cant see anyone else but me. he only LOVES me.. hes uses the other girls for sex but he LOVES me. where even if hes having s*x with a co-wife, hes thinking about ME the entire time.

like a drug, he never admits this to me ofc. but my co-wives come and tell me that he whispers my name during s*x and that everytime i go cold on him, he goes to them to ask for an answer - on whether ive talked to anyone of them about it.