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dear husband, i love you

to my dearest husband, if you ever find this, know that i love you and only you.

today when you asked me "do you want the moon?" i nodded yes, then you asked me "do you want the sun?" i nodded yes.

you told me, "im going to put the moon in one hand, and the sun in the other. and if i cant do that, then i will give you my love." and then you looked at me with a love so deep, with a love that i have only ever read about, with a love that i know i will never experience with anyone else. with your deep love, my darling, you have given my love, life.

i never knew what it was like to want to meet someone in jannah, even tho we talk about jannah all the time, i just could never envision it. but today when i prayed asr, i saw us in jannah together. you looking at me for 40 years and me being shy that i have a husband so handsome, so sweet, so willing to do anything for me. 

and what i know and love about you most, is despite everything, how much love and trust Allah has put in me for you. i trust you with everything and i would never give that trust to anyone else.

i love you truly so much, that i never understood what it was like when people said "words cant describe it" but truly, that is how i feel. 

i love what we've done together and i love what we will do together for years to come iA, i want to have my babies with your handsome butt and no one else and ik that you'll be the best dad to them.

i love you, darling, and i never want you to forget it.