life updates for anyone who cares

trying out the carnivore diet + leaving DIM for the week

so i was taking the DIM supplement - and i suddenly wasnt "depressed" i was normal, not happy or ecstatic but just not like i wanted life to end and boring

but i didnt take it for the past two days and i felt very off today, very tumultuous - could be my period, but pms is before periods and not really on the period so not sure why.

im thinking it could be related to DIM and i got quite emotional today and im not sure why - but started to feel quite insecure and me and my husband were talking about hedonism and andrew tate and how doesnt i get old just having sex with everyone, and reducing women to their boobs and ass? and i said smth like "like ik you think the same, you want to have sex with other women to see what its abot" and my voice cracked and idk why i was thinking about it in the first place - nothing acc happened to make me feel like he would do that to me.

I felt very anxious today basically and even now my anxiety is here and rampant - its so bad bc my heart  is beating very fast and i cant seem to relax even if i breathe hard and deep it doesnt work. and apparently estrogen  is very high during periodsand can cause anxiety:https://annarborholistichealth.com/2015-4-21-dim-diindoly-methan-for-natural-protection-from-estrogens-effect/

so that makes sense.

but idk apparently DIM processes excess estrogen out of your system - also i havent been praying for 5 days bc of my period so maybe that also has a part in it. .

i dont feel like myself- and i feel like crying. i do think theres too many confounding factors like not praying and also period hormones, i hate being a female sometimes.

i dont really feel like writing anything rn except a little experimental update - me and my husband are going on a carnivore diet - hes going on it for a month, and im going on it for two .. but i might start adding foods like fruits later on... idk about vegetables just yet.

apparently the bioavailability of meat vs vegies makes vegies a better option.

so lets see how this goes. i assume constipation etc and im still gonna have coffee but with 1:1 ratio instead of 2:1