Ace Attorney X Reader One Shots Vol. 2

Love Is A Guide Pt 2

Love Is A Guide Pt 2

Your Pov:

Lunch was quiet after what she said. After we finished, I went home. I changed into some more comfortable clothing and put on my headphones. I connected my phone and placed it on the counter after putting on a random playlist. I went to the sink and started to clean the dirty dishes.

"I will not make the same mistakes that you did. I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery. I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard. I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far..."

I tensed when I heard those lyrics. I sighed and continued washing the dishes, trying to ignore my thoughts. It was true though. I did have to learn the hard way with this relationship.

"Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk. Because of you,
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt..."

I felt the bruise throbbing under my make up. I learned to stay submissive and do whatever Kristoph asked of me to avoid being hurt even more. I never leave the house unless it's for work or family things. It felt like I was being kept captive in my home.

"Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me. Because of you, I am afraid..."

I gripped the counter, breathing deeply. I have built my walls up so high to avoid being hurt again, but even my thoughts betray me most of the time. They yell the one thing I can't bring myself to admit: I'm afraid.

"I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out. I cannot cry
because I know that's weakness in your eyes..."

Tears welled up in my eyes and even though I was alone, I couldn't bring myself to cry. It made me feel weak and defenseless. It made me feel selfish. Why cry over my situation when other people's are much worse?

"I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh every day of my life. My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with..."

At work, my emotions are all a lie. What everyone sees on the outside is not who I am on the inside. To a stranger, I'd probably look like I'm perfectly fine and that there's nothing wrong with me. I hope I can keep that image up long enough to fool them.

"Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk, Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt. Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me. Because of you, I am afraid."

I wiped off the counter, feeling even more tears coming. I grabbed the duster and went to the front room to dust my picture frames. I picked up one of the frames and smiled. It was of me and my mom at my high school dance show. We were smiling at the camera. Kristoph stood to the side, looking very bored. I had went to the same high school as Kristoph. He was always uninterested in the dance shows I participated in. He never even bought me a single flower.

"I watched you die. I heard you cry every night in your sleep. I was so young. You should have known better than to lean on me. You never thought of anyone else. You just saw your pain. And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing..."

Kristoph liked to use me as his emotional dumping ground. He would complain to me about his brother and how bad he made their family look. He made himself out to be perfect. No flaws or imperfections.

"Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk. Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt. Because of you, I try my hardest just to forget everything. Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in. Because of you, I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty. Because of you, I am afraid..."

I finished dusting and headed back to the kitchen. I was shaking like a leaf by now. Once in the kitchen, I leaned on the counter. The final lines of the song played.

"Because of you...Because of you..."

Then, just like that, the flood gates opened. I collapsed to the ground as loud sobs escaped my lips, echoing throughout the empty house.