Hetalia love affairs (Gay)

Chapter 54

Japan sat down in the only empty seat which was beside Russia. Nobody wanted to sit with Russia after what happened with China but Japan had to since it was the only seat left. He sat down and pretended Russia wasn't even there. Japan started studying immideatly to be able to catch up with the teacher but then he heard a quiet sob. Thinking it was only his imagination continued Japan with his studies. A couple of minuets later heard Japan a sob again. Japan glanced at Russia who had his head layed down on the table, his arms in a cross under his head. Japan then heard a sob yet again and this time he saw a bit of Russia's face. Japan's eyes widened. 'Russia is crying!!' Japan thought as he quickly looked away 'should I do something??'. Japan then slowly leaned down on the table and looked at Russia.

"hey, are you arright?" Japan whispered to Russia. Russia seemed to stiffen up. It's was like he stopped breathing for a moment but he then replied.

"I'm fine" Russia whispered.

"I know you're crying" Japan whispered back.

"I'm not crying.. I'm resting my head" Russia replied.

"that's a stupid excuse"

"Then what do you want me to say? I'm just sitting here and crying like a little bitch?" Russia accidentally exclaimed as he looked up at Japan with his eyes full of tears. Everyone in the class now stared at Russia and Japan.

"N-no! prease don't shout" Japan said and was getting nervous.

"I'm just going to do everyone a favour and go" Russia said as he stood up and he then stormed out of the classroom.
After class met America up with Japan and China.

"Hey dude! what was all that drama with Russia about??" Americ asked curious.

"I just asked why he was crying and he got angry" Japan stated.

"why the hell was he crying?" China asked.

"how shourd I know" Japan said "mabye you shourd just go and ask him!"

"mabye I'll do that!" China replied.

"then go do that" Japan said. China walked away. China went into the room he knew Russia usually liked to go too when he wanted to be alone. There he saw Russia standing by a window and staring out. China stood in the doorway.

"Why were you crying?" China asked.

"remeber when you told me to go die..?" Russia asked kinda quiet.

"Yes, it was yesterday!!" China replied annoyed.

"I've been starting to think that mabye I should"

"You can't just go and expect to die, aru! that's just stupid" China said.

"Not like that..." Russia turned around. China's eyes widened slighty as he saw the tears streaming down Russia's face.

"then what?"

"I mean... that I should kill myself.." Russia turned back to the window "I deserve to just die and go to hell" Russia then said as tears continued forming in his eyes. China stared at Russia wide eyed as he just stood there in shock.

"you... you're going to kill yourself?!" China then managed to say.

"There's no reason not too"

"no reason..? what about your sisters?! they would be devastated!" China exclaimed.

"I don't care!!! They'd get over it and continue with their lives! But if I continue living I will only hurt more people!! I don't want that!!" Russia exclaimed and then walked up to China. He grabbed China softly by the shoulders and gazed into his eyes. "And besides.. If I don't get to be with you I see no reason to live anymore" He then said.

"I... I can't be with you! I can't trust you again but I don't want you to kill yourself!! You have to get some professional help Ivan!!!" China exclaimed. Russia let go of China's shoulders.

"thank you for the advice" Russia smiled "I'll mabye do that" and then he walked away. Russia walked through the corridors and to the stairs that led to the roof. He walked up and opened the door to walk out. Russia slowly walked to the edge and looked down. 'it's really far down' he thought as he stepped a bit closer.

'WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!?!?!!!". Russia turned around and saw China panting after running.

"what are you doing here?" Russia asked.

"I'M TRYING TO TELL YOU THAT YOU SHOULD NOT KILL YOURSELF!!!" China shouted.

"it's a little late for that don't you think?" Russia asked as he stepped closer and was now on the edge, only a few millimeters more and he would fall.

"What?!! NO DON'T!!!" China began running towards Russia.

"I love you" Russia said quietly as he stepped off the edge. He fell down with a slight smile on his face as he came closer to the ground and then crashed into it. Blood splattered on the grass around him as he took his last breath. 'I hope China will forgive me' Russia thought just as the life drifted from his body. He was now dead.