Colleen POV
I am closing my eyes just breathing. Tara is pricking my finger again to check my sugars. I open my eyes and grab Josh. "Joshua. I feel weird. Its starting again" I say crying. He looks at Tara who starts taking my sugars again and gets a Glucagon shot ready to boost my sugars faster. "Josh can you move for a second?" Tara says as he lets go of me and lets Katie and her work on me. "No,no,no!"I yell to Josh crying. He hops on the bed behind my head to stay out of the girls way holding me. I am looking at him as he stares right down at my face. He is upset. "Colleen, Tara is giving you a shot. You will be good babe" he says holding onto either side of my face. I grab onto his wrists and nod. I know he doesn't know what is happening and trying to hold it together for me. I look at Rachel and my parents and they step back with Lily watching the commotion. I close my eyes. "Colleen!!" Josh yells. "I am good Josh. Just calming myself down" I say as I feel a second shot in my arm. "Come on baby" he says. "Josh it will work just breathe" Tara says. He is sobbing so I open my eyes and look at him. "Joshua, stop babe" I say smiling. "Colleen I am dying inside" he says. Tara checks my sugars again and I hear her announce I am good. I roll over and hug Josh's leg. He rubs my back as he settles himself down. Finally I hear him sigh and stops crying. Everyone leaves the room except for Josh and I. "Colleen I nearly passed out baby" He says hugging me as he lays down behind me. He reaches around and rubs my belly. "No more baby in there" he says kissing my neck. "You did so amazing" he adds. "You made me calm babe so thank you" I say grabbing his hand as it wraps around me. "We have a daughter sweetheart" he says as he leans and kisses my cheek. "She looks just like you" I say. "I need to sit up. I want Lily" I say as I slowly prop myself up. Josh gets up and walks out to the living room and invites everyone in as he brings Lily back. He lays her on the bed and takes her out of the blanket and puts a diaper on her and a onesie as well as a little hat and rewraps her in a clean blanket as he kisses her cheek. I am crying watching him. This is my dream watching my husband with our first baby. He knows my hormones are over the edge and just smiles as he passes me her. She starts getting fussy so I throw a blanket over me and try breastfeeding her as Josh sits beside me. "She is so small" I say watching her. Josh just smiles at me. After she latches on I lean back onto Joshua as we both just stare at her. This is a day I will never forget.
