Colleen POV
"What are we going to do?" he asks me holding my hand. "I went to the doctor before I came here" I say. "And?" He says. "He wasn't happy with us and suggested ..." I say quietly. "What babe?" He says propping up on his elbow waiting for an answer."Terminating the pregnancy" I say crying. He puts his hands over his face crying. "Joshua" I whisper looking at him. He continues crying. "Joshua please calm down" I beg. "How can I?" He says. "Cause I need you too. We need to talk. I want to have the baby. What do you think?" I ask. He stops crying and stares at me. "Your body almost shut down with Noah. How can you think this will be any different?" He asks getting angry as he puts clothes on. "Where are you going?" I ask sitting up. "Need air" he says. He grabs his shoes and starts walking out of the room. "Joshua please I need you" I say. "Colleen you made your decision already without me. Please stop with the lie that you want to talk. We all know you will do what you want to do" he says crying again as he walks. I flop down on the bed and cry. I cry so much I fall asleep.
I wake up a few hours later with still no Joshua. I look at the time and know he has a show across the street from the hotel in a few hours so I jump in the shower. I stand there and enjoy the warm water soothing me as my mind races. My emotions and hormones are all over the place today. I hop out and start brushing through my hair and put it up and then I start applying some makeup to look more alive. I walk back into the room and put some jeans on with high heel booties and my favorite white tank top with my purple long cardigan. I phone Josh and it goes right to his voicemail. I leave the hotel with my phone and purse and make my way across the street to the venue. I walk to the back door and one of Josh's regular security guards recognizes me and lets me in. I walk through the back and into the green room. I see Josh sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. "Josh" I say as I startle him. He turns and looks at me and turns right back around. He looks a mess. "Are you not talking to me?Because we need to please" I demand. He doesn't say anything. My calmness is going out the window. "Joshua!" I say slamming the door closed. He looks at me. "We need to talk. I am in shock as well. I need you!" I say tearing up. He says nothing. I go and stand in front of him and wait. He again doesn't make eye contact with me. "I have never been more disappointed in you in my life" I say as I turn to walk out into the hall. I make it halfway down and turn around to see if Josh is following me. He isn't. I sit in a chair at the end of the hall for 10 minutes to see if he will change his mind. He never comes. I am a mess. I call Rachel. "Rachel I am coming home. I will text you when I change my flight details" I sob. "Colleen are you ok?" She asks. "He won't even talk to me Rachel" I say wiping my face as I walk across the street to the hotel. "I want to come home" I say as I reach my room and grab my suitcase. I hang up with Rachel and call the airline and switch my flight to tonight in 2 hours. I write a note on the hotel stationary:
Gone Home
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I can't believe I am on my way to the airport to go home. Worst day of my life.
