Colleen POV
I wake up in the middle of the night to hear Josh vomiting in our bathroom. I shoot up and run over and open the door. He looks up and holds up his hand. "I am good babe please" he says. I sit beside him and rub his back. "Colleen I don't want you to see me like this" he says as tears run down his face. "Josh get over it. I am staying" I say. He is throwing up non stop. I grab his meds off the counter and try to give him one. "I will just throw it up babe" he says holding onto my knee. "The pharmacist told me to get suppositories too. He said this might happen. You need to use it Josh. Can you do it?" I say watching him. He is so pale and it is making me upset seeing him so sick. " I can do it" he says. I nod and walk out of the bathroom for a second. "Ok babe all done" he calls. I walk back in and he is laying on the floor. "I am so hot" he says. I reach to feel him and he is cold. "Want help getting up?" I ask him. "I want to stay here" he says. I walk back to our bed and grab our pillows and our duvet. I bring it back to the bathroom and lay it on the floor. Josh rolls onto it and curls up with it and his pillow. I lay down beside him with my pillow and watch him sleeping. I hold my hand over my face and cry. Slowly I drift off.
I wake up that morning to sun coming through the window. I look at Josh and he is still sleeping. He is still pale but at least he slept. I try to get up slowly and quiet. I walk over him and his eyes open. "Shit I was trying to let you sleep" I say leaning down to him on my knees. "Colleen, can you grab me some water please?" he asks. "Yes of course. Cold or room temperature?" I ask. "Room please" he says. I grab a glass from the bathroom counter and fill it half way and turn around to him. "I like the view" he says smiling. "You are bad even when you are sick" I say laughing. I grab his meds and give him all of them as he sips the water. I am kissing his shoulder over and over watching him. He grabs my knee and smiles. "Better?" I ask. He nods. "My leg hurts" he says laying back down. I lift off the duvet and look at the burn marks forming on his lower stomach and upper legs. "Joshua" I say getting upset. He looks down and closes his eyes. I grab the cream prescribed and start putting it on him. "Thanks baby" he says. "Feel better?" I ask. "I don't know whether I like the cream or your hands better" he says laughing. I smile and punch his shoulder. I lean down to him and kiss his lips as he rolls over to sleep again. My love is breaking my heart.
