Colleen POV
I feel so sick as I lay in the hospital bed. I have tried to eat something but my body is not happy with that and its unsettling my stomach. "Josh" I whisper as he sits watching me. "Grab me something to be sick in" I ask quickly as he grabs a basin. He rubs my neck as I vomit. Finally I am done. I have tears streaming down my face as I stare at Josh. I see him I just can't talk to him. I feel like I am outside of myself. "Grab the nurse" Josh says to my sister. "Baby, the nurse is coming. You don't look right" he says. "Can you hear me?" He asks crying. I cannot respond. "Blink for me if you understand" he says. I blink. He starts sobbing. I feel nurses working on me as Josh gets pushed away along with my parents and sister. "Colleen?" A nurse asks. "Still with us?" Another nurse asks. I do nothing. I can't. "She is slipping into a diabetic coma! Grab the doctor" a nurse yells to another. They are pushing meds into my lines as I stare straight ahead. "Lily" I whisper. "Lily?" the nurse asks. "That will be our baby's name" Josh says. The nurse nods and smiles at me. "We are taking care of you and Lily, Colleen" she says. A doctor rushes in assesses the situation. "Glucophage 500mg stat" the doctor yells to a nurse. Slowly as the nurse pushes it into me I feel myself come back. I smile at Josh and he sobs with Rachel. He knows I am coming back. Finally they stabilize me.
"Baby, Colleen, I love you so much" Josh cries holding my hand after the nurses leave. "I know baby. Love you too" I say. "Colleen how do you feel?" He asks me. "Better" I say staring at the machines. The nurse comes back in and takes my blood sugar and its back to normal. Josh sighs. "Is she ok?" Josh asks the nurse. "She seems better but we are unsure if the diabetes damaged her organs" the nurse tells Josh. He sits down and stares at me and my belly. I run my fingers through his hair. He kisses my hand over and over again. I honestly feel a million times better. "Josh I am good now" I say smiling. "I am getting grey hair already" he says giggling.
About 17 days later my dialysis is done and I am stable. Josh doesn't want me to leave the hospital. He is terrified even though they walked him through what to do if I start slipping again. I grab onto Josh's arm and walk slowly out of the hospital. "Lily is getting heavier" I say leaning into him. "She is babe. Only 5 more weeks til we see our sweet girl" he says kissing my forehead. We jump in the car and walk in the door. I am so thankful to be home. I walk into Lily's nursery and lay in the middle of the floor and close my eyes as I rub my belly. I want her in my arms now.
