Colleen POV
"Can you pick Lily and I up on the way to moms?" I ask Rachel on the phone. "Sure. I will be by in 10 minutes" Rachel says as she hangs up. I walk into the laundry room and grab some of Lily's clean clothes I just washed and throw them into my huge overnight bag. I walk into my room and start grabbing some clothes when Josh walks in from then man cave. "Colleen all I want to do is support you and talk to you but you won't let me. Why are you shutting me out like its my fault?" He asks tearing up. I look away. "I know its something we weren't expecting but we need to be able to communicate and work through it" he says. "I need time Josh" I say as I walk into the bathroom and grab some of my makeup and toothbrush. I walk back into the bedroom and Josh is crying while sitting on the corner of the bed. "We just had Lily two months ago and we haven't even had a chance to be a family yet and you are already worried about the next baby" he says looking at me waiting for a response. I walk out of the bedroom knowing he is making complete sense but my vision always included two kids and I can't stop thinking about it. We waited and saved and bought the right house and we have had nothing but roadblocks. I grab Lily from her crib and Josh follows me and gives her a kiss before I put her in the car seat. He them grabs my hand and kisses it. "Have fun baby" he says and walks away. I am stunned he isn't fighting for me to stay.
Rachel pulls up as I load Lily into the backseat. I come around to the passenger side and climb in. "How come Josh isn't coming?" Rachel asks me as we pull out of the driveway. "I need to get away" I say as we drive. "Colleen spill it" she says as she drives. I tell her what the doctor said about the diabetes and about a second baby and how Josh is okay with just Lily and how I don't think he will try for a second. I breakdown. "Colleen he cares about you and you are punishing him for it" she says looking at me. "I just needed to get out. I am disappointed in myself" I say looking out the window.
We pull up to my parents house and sit in the backyard just me, my sister and my mom. My mom asks me where Josh is and I tell her everything like I did with Rachel. "Colleen, Josh loves you more than himself. You are not treating him right. He must feel so alone. You are married now. You need to help each other" she says to me. I nod looking down at my hands. "I have to call him" I say as I stand up and walk away and call him on my cell. "Hi" I hear Josh answer. "Hi babe" I say. "Doing ok sweetheart? Having fun?" He asks. "No. I am so sorry Joshua" I say crying while sitting in the grass. "Colleen we need to talk things through. I love you" he says crying. I nod not being able to speak. "Josh grab some clothes and come here please. I need you" I say crying. "I will be there in a few hours babe. Love you" he says and he hangs up.
