Persona x Reader

Yosuke Hananura x Depressed!Reader (P4)

A feeling had been nagging at Yosuke for a while. When you didn't have time to see each other, texting would be usual throughout the day. Lately though, your replies have been few and far between, and the messages themselves were quite short. Even when he asked about things he knew you liked, you didn't answer with excitement like usual. 

He frowned, cursing his current work shift. He couldn't help but worry, something seemed amiss. Even if he tried to convince himself maybe you were just busy; he felt soemthing was wrong. 

After thinking on a little longer, he sighed and pocketed his phone. "Hey Teddie, could you do me a favour?" 

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Having lost track of the time and day, your mind felt clouded with mist. Even if you had the energy to wander around the house, you couldn't concentrate on a simple task. Even enjoying something would be a feat. So for a while while longer, you scrolled aimlessly on your phone, not paying attention to anything in particular. 

A knock resounded from the door. You smoothed down your unbrushed hair -how long it'd been, you don't remember-, and opened the door. 

"Oh, Yosuke?" Suddenly feeling self-conscious, you straightened out your clothes. "I thought you were going to be busy for work during the summer?" 

"I asked Teddie to fill in for me." He explained, and took a moment to look at you closely. "Are... You okay? I've been, well, worried about you."

"Me? I'm fine! I'm fine." You answered, not sure if you were convincing him or yourself. 

Yosuke didn't seem to believe you, looking concerned. "... Have you had anything to eat today?"

You thought about it for a moment, before realising you didn't really know. "Um, earlier today? Or was it last night?"

"Last night?!" Yosuke nodded firmly. "Okay, go sit on the couch and I'll make you something."

Not having the energy to refuse, you complied and sat down. Yosuke was busy in your kitchen for a while, before he came back with a small lunch. As he set it down, you eyed it wearily. 

"I haven't really felt like eating lately..." You admitted. 

"But you have to eat." Yosuke said, eyes pleading. "Please, just a little?"

Although hesitant, you follow his wishes. You managed to finish it, despite not feeling up to it just moments before. Your body felt a little less weak.

"Thank you. I'm sorry for worrying you, you can head back now." You told him. 

Yosuke eyebrows were drawn in concern. "I don't need to, I got it covered. What's wrong?"

"Nothing is." You answered, and it was an honest one.

"There has to be something. You barely talk to me anymore, and- and you don't look like you're fine." Yosuke pressed. "Was it something I did? I-"

"Nothing's wrong!" You said a little louder, voice cracking. Without realising, your eyes had already began to pool with tears.

Yosuke froze, hands raised gingerly as if not sure what to do with them. "I... I'm sorry."

You shook your head, scrubbing your eyes in frustration. "You didn't do anything."

"I didn't mean to stress you out..." Yosuke sighed, and then gently put his hand on your shoulder. As you looked up at him, he tried to smile reassuringly. "I'm here for you. If I can help then I want to. I know I'm kinda dumb with this stuff but..."

"But there's really nothing wrong." You said again, and Yosuke had to lean in to hear. "I just... Starting feeling like this. And it won't go away."

"What are you feeling?" Yosuke asked gently, rubbing your shoulder. 

It was difficult to speak, as a stone seemed to have lodged itself in your throat. Your head ached tremendously and your eyes burned with the tears that fell from them. 

"I can't... I can't enjoy anything, no matter how much I try. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't want to eat, I haven't even brushed my hair." You cried, the dam coming undone. "I-I'm so tired, but I can't sleep at night. I don't know what to do with myself."

As your crying got louder and became sobs, Yosuke held you close. "Hey, hey, it's okay. I'm here."He wrapped both arms around your shoulders and you buried your face in his chest, every worry leaving your mind in the form of wails. 

"When did this start?" Yosuke asked, voice almost a whisper. 

"I don't know, I can't keep track of anything anymore." You sniffed. "It would come and go, so I just thought I could deal it with it until it left again, but... It just won't go away."

For a moment there was silence, save for your hiccups. Yosuke took the time to rub your back in attempt to soothe you, and as you calmed he spoke up once more. 

"You know, there're people you can talk to about this. I think it'd help." Yosuke suggested softly. "And I'm here too. I'll always be with you, no matter what."

His words were a comfort to you, and you felt a bit at ease. Still, the feeling that had been plaguing you wasn't easily shaken off. 

"But what if it doesn't go away?"

Yosuke paused, unsure how to answer. "It'll get better. We'll find help for you, I promise."

He hugged you tighter, and you returned it, hoping to convey your gratitude in the warmth of your hold.

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A/N: Requested by @ChibiGhost2628 ! 

This had some feelings put into it, because it was a struggle for me. I dip every now and then but I'm feeling much better. And there are things to help, like support groups and hotlines, some are available to email if you don't like talking out loud, at least the one I contacted did. I didn't think it'd help much but one night I was desperate and emailed them at 4am, and it helped.

I'm not an expert of course, but to people who are struggling like this I really recommend it, or talking to your family or friends. I hope you all feel better, and that this was a comfort to you.