Luke's Diary: An Unlucky Man in a Zombie Apocalypse. Days 201-400

Day 303: Sunday 25th June 2017 Time Unknown

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Day 303
Sunday 25th June 2017 Time Unknown

Dear Auntie Meryl

By the time you read this I'll be dead.

For the past few days I've been trapped in a cabin at the back of the park. With no food or water and no way of getting out I'm slowly dying. I feel ill, weak and powerless.

After DeShawn and I confronted Dump we discovered that he was in alliance with Hilary. Bit of a turn up for the books. Dump shot and killed DeShawn and Hilary knocked me out. I woke up here last week and have endured days of boredom and hours of staring into space ever since.

After the first couple of days, I realised that no one was coming for me and that I was going to die in here. Maybe Dump is still in control. Maybe he and Hilary have prevented you guys from looking for me. Maybe you're all dead and there's no point in my writing this note at all. Either way, I've accepted my inevitable death.

My only options now are to wait and die or kill myself. I don't relish the idea of walking around as an infected but there's not much I can do about it. There's nothing in here I can use to damage my brain and I don't think I've got it in me to repeatedly smash my head against the wall. I just know that I need to die. I can't spend what little time I've got left living suffering in this this misery. I've found a piece of wire which I'm going to fashion into a noose. There's the remains of an old light fitting in the ceiling so I plan on tying the wire around that, putting the noose around my neck and hanging myself. Hopefully my neck will snap and I'll insanity die once I drop. I know I'll turn and come back infected but I guess I won't care or know anything about it.

I wanted to tell you that I love you and I wanted to say thank you for all the help you gave me before all this mess started. When my ex-wife and I went through all of our trouble you were a big help letting me stay at yours. I know you never liked her but I don't know what I'd have done without you. Thanks for being there when my Mum was too busy partying and having sex with all those different men. There's been many times when you were a better Mum to me than my actual Mum was. I know we bickered every now and then but I always loved you and you were always my favourite Auntie. I love you so much.

Tell Mia I'm sorry for all the times I called her a daft bint and thick cow. It' not her fault she went through all those experiments that affected her intelligence. She's a sweet girl and we got close when we spent lots of time together. Tell her I love her and that I'll miss her.

Tell Naomi that I hope she's happy with Amelia and Seth. There was a time when I thought I would have the life that Seth now has. He is one lucky guy. Naomi knows I had some feelings for her and I always hoped that we might get together. I guess that's just me being pathetic. I suppose I've always been pathetic. Why would someone like Naomi look twice at a loser like me when there's the magnificent specimen of a man like Seth to keep her warm at night? Tell her I'll miss and that I always cared for her and felt close to her.

Tell Trudy I hope everything works out well with the twins and tell TJ I hope he steps up and starts being a better Dad to those kids than his Dad was with him, Kay and Mike. I know I used to moan at everyone a lot and complain about things. I didn't mean to. Tell them – and Troy and Lindon, in fact tell everyone that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being an annoying pain in the a*se at times. I won't annoy any of you ever again.

I have to do this. Please forgive me. I can't live like this anymore. I love you.

Goodbye