A New Chapter Begins...

Part 13

'A few months later Tom finishes up filming in New York, you head out to your apartment in LA'

You: Okay, before we go in, you can't judge it

Tom: Why would I judge it?

You: It's a very small apartment, it's the only one I could come close to affording

Tom: So, what, it's like a hotel room?

You: Like a normal person hotel room, but with a bedroom

Tom: I'm going to love it either way

'When you walk in, you have to biggest smile on your face. All the memories come rushing back and you walk out onto your balcony.'

Tom: I wish my balcony in London had views like this

You: Really? I always kind of hated looking at rows of buildings before the ocean

Tom: Well, I think it's beautiful

'You sit outside to watch the sunset together. You can't wait to watch more with him. After the sunset, you and Tom get ready to go to bed. You decide to unpack all your clothes from your suitcase and put them away while Tom changes'

Tom: You got any extra drawers for my stuff?

You: You mean you want to stay longer than a week?

Tom: I don't know maybe unless you miss London

You: Or maybe a different apartment...

Tom: Well we can look for one if you want to

You: I was only kidding, I'm not ready to move again

Tom: Again?

You: Yeah, I left home because of my brother

Tom: Wow, I was expecting you to say, parents

You: Tom, I'm not joking. I probably won't even tell my parents about us either, even though they pay for most of my rent.

Tom: Why wouldn't you tell them about us? And our wedding? Your dad is supposed to give you away to me

You: If I tell my parents, I'm basically telling my brother. And I want nothing to do with him

Tom: What could he have possibly done?

'You look up at him with tears in your eyes and your hands clamped shut. They are clamped so hard they cause your palms to start bleeding'

Tom: Babe you're scaring me. Please relax, you don't have to answer me.

'He stands up and wraps you in a bear hug. Once he notices your hands unclench, he lets go'

Tom: Look you can tell me when you're ready and if you're never ready that's okay too

You: Thank you, Tom. I just get so angry and stressed because it could've been avoided

'You both sit on your bed and you turn off the lights getting ready to go to bed'

You: Are you sure you're ready for me to tell you?

Tom: I'm ready. Are you? And why are the lights off?

You: I'm ready and the lights are off, so I can't see your face. I always get these terrible looks and I'm done looking at them

Tom: I promise I won't make a face. Can you turn the lights back on?

'You turn the lights back on and take a deep breath'

Tom: Here, give me your hands, so you have something to squeeze and not your bleeding palms

You: Okay so my brother is significantly older than me, he came from my mom's first marriage. One night he came back home from some party completely plastered to the point I'm surprised he even made it home. It was like 2 in the morning and I was grabbing a glass of water from the kitchen

'You start to clench Tom's hands'

You: Jacob walks in completely gone and so I just gave my water. When I went to bring him to bed, I turned around and he had a knife in his hand. Next thing I know I had a knife in my stomach.

'You pick up your shirt to show him the scar'

You: Right after that I moved here to getaway. It's been 5 years and I haven't seen or heard from him, and I'd like to keep it that way if I can

Tom: Darling, I'm so sorry, but I'm so proud of you for telling me

'Tom gives you a hug and gives you a kiss before you drift off'