Y/N'S POV
"Y/n look I got one" Aaliyah held up the beautiful red rose with a little card on it.
"Read the card".
She smiled and shook her head, instead she showed the card on the rose.
Dear beautiful Aaliyah,
I love your smile
Xxx J
"Who do you think it is?".
"I don't know nobody really talks to me".
"Aww, you'll find him or her".
"I hope so". She looked over to her friend who was holding hands with her boyfriend.
"Maybe you can be like them".
"Aww, it's so cute when people are in love, makes me happy".
I hugged her side.
"You'll see you find 'J' soon".
She smiled.
"Anyway did you got one?".
I walked towards my locker opened it.
That was what i was afraid of...
Four years in a row already
I showed her the inside of my locker.
"Oh, I'm sorry y/n".
"It's okay I never expected something".
"I really wanted you to have a rose for your last year here".
"Aaliyah it's okay".
"Oh... Yea my brother right".
"Aaliyah...".
"I think Y/n has a crush on my brother".
"Stop Aaliyah I'm not!".
"See how you react on his name".
"I do not like your brother".
"Shawn".
"Yep...".
"Say his name".
"Shawn".
"O, my God, did I heard a high pitch in your voice".
I looked away from her to suppress the pinkish blush on my face.
"I don't love your brother!".
"We'll see... he is planning on going to go to the monument today".
My heart stopped I go almost every week to it especially now this day.
I need to go...
"Aaliyah!".
She turned around to a boy and smiled.
"Oh hey, Jordan...".
I hit her arm slightly.
"Jordan?".
She held still as she realized it too.
Jordan nervously touched her arm.
"Aaliyah, everything okay?".
"Yes yes, I'm okay Jordan".
"Okay good...uhm Aaliyah?".
"Yes?".
"Did you got... uhm... A Rose".
Her cheeks heated up.
"Yes...".
"It kinda was mine".
"Kinda?".
"Y/n shut up let him talk".
I smiled at her reaction.
"No not kinda course not kinda it's mine".
"Aww, Jordan that's sweet of you I loved the little card".
He smiled at her reaction,
"I uhm...".
He took her hand in his slowly caressing her skin.
"I'll let you two alone".
I walked away from Aaliyah who was still in shock staring at her hand in his.
I'm happy for her but on this day I only feel more lonely
I stepped into class as one of the last, took a seat in the back cover of the classroom. Everybody in my class had a bit or girlfriend or at least a crush. I don't. Yea I do but he is in college already.
Shawn...
I minded my own business in the room packed with people who are all in love.
As class ended, I walked out of the school to a little flower shop I always buy a Rose for two years.
"Y/n, hey".
"Hey, Etala".
"No rose for you today?".
"No, but I want to buy one for Joaquin".
"Black as always".
"Black as always black was his favorite color".
"I went to the monument yesterday it was beautiful".
She gave me the black Rose as I walked away I waved at her.
I froze when I walked out.
He was there standing on the other side of the street, leaning against his jeep.
He waved at me. I tried to collect my breath slowly walking up to him.
"Hey Y/n".
"Hey Shawn what are you doing here?".
"Aaliyah told me you were here".
"So you followed me like a creep?".
"I planned on going to the monument and as I see you too". He nodded to the black rose in my hands.
"For Joiquin".
"Dive with me". He opened the door for me let me in and buckled me up closed the door again. He stepped in himself and started driving.
"How is valentine day going for you?".
I looked down to hid my face burning up.
"Just a normal day".
He reached out for my hand laced our fingers together. I looked at him, He focused on my road again and smiled.
My eyes traveled towards our hands. Then back to him, his eyes met mine as I looked away slowly emphases that he should see how nervous I am right now.
When we arrived at the monument a few miles away from the school I walked towards Joinquin's picture and lay down the rose.
Shawn lay down an ice hockey puck.
"There you go buddy Cody Ceci sight this for you".
We stayed there for a while, silently.
"I miss him".
Shawn looked at me, smiled sadly.
"Same it's been two years now".
"It seems like everybody forgot this. too caught up in Valentine's Day".
I tried to swallow back the major lump in my throat.
"It's supposed to be a happy day today and he ruined it...".
"He was lost in his mind".
I closed my eyes salt tears slowly leaving my eyes. Shawn noticed it earlier than I could react.
"Hey Y/n don't cry he is behind bars right now".
"That still doesn't make up for the seventeen dead's and the students being harmed and traumatized for life Shawn".
"I know but you are safe with me".
"We are never safe".
I began to cry out loud I cried for Joinquin, for all the students who lost their friend for the family's who lost their daughter's son's and siblings. I cried for Shawn who lost his best friend. And for myself who might be needing a hug right now.
"Hey, y/n it's okay I'm here".
"I want joiquin back I want my friend back".
"Want a hug?".
I nodded and collapsed against his chest. I was so in my trance that I didn't even realize I was hugging shawn. My crush since like forever.
I calmed down listening to his heartbeat which was beating like crazy, which made mine go crazy instantly.
He dragged my face from his chest examed it for a while.
God stop looking!
He whipped my tears away slowly, kissed my cheek softly and smiled.
"Let's go somewhere else".
He grabbed my hand and ran towards his car, I stumbled from the force.
"Wait where are you going?".
"Somewhere special".
We drove off.
Shawn parked into a parking loft, opened his door walked towards my side. And dragged me out. Immediately covered my eyes with his hands.
"Shawn...".
"Just trust me".
I started walking carefully afraid that I would trip.
"Dont be so scared I got you".
One of his hands left my eyes and took my hand in a tight grip. The other covering both of my eyes now.
"Okay, open for eyes".
He removed his hand from my eyes as I opened them.
It was the place we met with our friends after we heard about the shooting.
The moment we met.
"What do you think".
"Thank you... For taking me here".
He squeezed my hand which he was still holding, we down on the grass.
"I miss him too...".
"It's okay Shawn we'll get through this".
"How long it gonna take until I don't miss him anymore".
"That will never happen, you will always miss him every year's you will be reminded with his death at least".
"Because of him, I love ice hockey".
"And because of him, I met you, Shawn".
He stayed quiet for a while looked down took my other hand in his hands caressed my skin.
"Uhm... Y/n".
"Yes, Shawn". He looked nervous so I smiled at him to calm him down.
"Aaliyah told me that you didn't even get a rose... So I got you something".
I looked at him confused.
He took a black rose from his back
And gave it to me.
"A black rose".
"To be honest it's not black... It has this kinda dark holographic colors, look".
He pointed towards the glimmering spot showing the dark color of pink.
"It's beautiful".
I started to cry instantly.
"Aww hey, it's okay it isn't that beautiful".
"No, I love black roses".
"I love you".
"What?".
"I think... No I know I love you".
"To be honest Shawn I had like the biggest crush on you since ever".
"Glad to hear that".
"You really like me?".
"No, I love you".
"I love you too".
I ignored all thoughts and fears.
I shoved closer to him and kissed his soft lips. My salty tears still on my lips. He wrapped his arms around my lower back as I placed my hands on his chest, he smiled which made me smile.
He pulled away slightly but I didn't let him u leave into him and pressed my lips against his.
He unlocked our lips for a second.
"Okay okay, I understand keep on kissing".
I kissed him again and my day couldn't be better.
But still, I won't remind valentines day for Shawn kissing me.
I'll remind it as another year's which went by with seventeen people less on this earth.
I'll always remind...
Black Roses
