𝑷𝒐𝒊𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝑲𝒊𝒏𝒅 / OT7 x Reader

- LXX -

Y/N POV

Last Dance

Fatal, this attraction, yeah we might just end up crashin'
But I'm ready if it happens with you
Meet me out in Cali when I'm far away from family
And I need someone to hold onto

The management asked for a song related to our main story line, and that's what I did. That's why I added the 'crashing' word, just to reference the fatal ending for my character in Jin's short film. She dies when she crosses the street. Sad.

But I also like to give hints of what is really happening in my reality for the song to be more relatable.

It wasn't California but I was far from my family and Jin was the one I could hold onto, I'm so grateful to have him in my life.

You're the only thing I know
And I don't wanna let this go
Close to you are I feel, feel like I'm at home
Can't wait 'til we're alone

He was kind to me since the beginning, he gave me the first faith card from the seven so I could continue working with them, I always have it on mind.

Tho, when I wrote the line 'Can't wait 'till we're alone' took me a back, because at some point I felt attracted to Jin, but that was impossible, right?
Hyung would care about all of us like the eldest brother, not like I'm the one he can date.

We were built to last
We were built like that
Baby take my hand
Tighten this romance
We could burn and crash
We could take a chance
Holdin' nothin' back
Like it's our last dance

When I was writing the first verse, I ended up crying, I didn't realize I had to let go of Jin's image to move forward, my mind opted for erasing all of the memories of my infatuation towards Jin.

When I came back to finish the song, I had Jungkook on my mind. Where did he go that didn't take me with him?
I got to know three days later he was visiting this new girl and my heart burned out in jealousy. But I couldn't do anything, right?
I kissed him during our first day in Norway but never acted farther, now that he really took a step farther for this girl I realized I fucked up. The only thing left for us is the reminding love we could've had, but I don't lose hope that easily, that's why I know that last dance we would have, could make him realize we might be the one for each other, just as Jimin and Taehyung are made for each other.

My eyes wide open, fallin' in and out of focus
Pressure flowin' like a river in my head
Crying, you ain't with me and it's floodin' the whole city
While my soul's burnin' like a cigarette

I realized Jungkook's secret date disappeared from my mind whenever I spent time with Yoongi, sometimes laughing, sometimes working, sometimes arguing, but we survived together. When he ended up in the hospital I felt like I was losing him, I cried rivers besides his hospital bed while he insisted he was okay. Then I realized I fell for him.
'Fallin' in and out of focus' That's how I feel when I'm beside him, sometimes he acts like he cares about me and sometimes he doesn't, one day he loves me and the next he doesn't.
And I thought I would stop loving him and his unstable love, but looks like my feelings don't pretend to fade away.

You're the only thing I know
And I don't wanna let this go
Close to you are I feel, feel like I'm at home
Can't wait 'til we're alone

Then Hoseok's image appeared in the second bridge. When I was about to give up on Yoongi's shit, Hoseok appears to remember I need to be patient with Suga. So I kept on loving Suga, but spending time with Hoseok, to the point where he became more than a bestfriend, because I fell for the way he cares about me. Hoseok is handsome yes, but the way he calls me sunshine while driving me to our favorite cafe showed me that kind of romantic novels might be true.
Is it possible to love two best friends?

Way too soon to feel so strong
Way too young to hurt so long, I'm hurtin'
Was it worth it?

Life is about feelings, but am I doing it right? Or am I just too dumb and craving for attention that I fall for every single one that steps on my sight?
Even with this questions on mind, my sixth sense warns me of something, this can't continue like this. The uncompleted and weird kinds of love I fell for the past mentioned, plus the physical attraction growing for Taehyung and Jimin is not going to take me to a good place.

I'll fall in love

I planned on keeping my eyes closed until the very last sound of my song disappeared from the big headphones I'm wearing, but before that, a pair of hands shake my shoulders.

"Ya ~ This honey voice of yours is, WOW ~"

I turn around and remember Hoseok was all this time with me inside the cabin. I smile at his statement and turn back to my place, where I can see our producer saving the changes and Yoongi laying in the sofa while giving me thumbs up.

Then a tall silhouette is standing on the door of the studio. When I frown because of my astigmatism to get a better view, I find a dimpled smile.

"I invited Namjoon-ah as well, he is as workaholic as Yoongi. He's not eating well this days"
"Yeah..." I replay my memories of last weekend, he never left his studio because he wanted to work on a song "Let's get something nutritive for those hyungs"

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Idk bout you but I imagine the protagonist in this era as young Dua. Of course you can change your image as you like, but if you struggle imagining Y/N's face, she can look like young Dua Lipa.

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