Avenge the Shadows (I)

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CHARLOTTE'S POV

Catherine slept in my room because I was exhausted and too sad to be alone. I had been crying a lot lately and just hiding in Justin's house to avoid thinking and telling Jace the truth, but it seemed like the whole thing had exploded right in my face, so I just stopped fighting it. Cath caressed me to sleep and I was thankful for that. After breakfast, Jace called me to his office as Catherine had the Combat Workshop, which meant, this was on me. I deactivated my runes and just got in, I was tired of hiding my sorrow and pain. "Okay, Miss Verlac, I gave you a whole night to come up with something to cover your actions, so now, I'm all ears." I sighed and just looked at him. "My judgement was clouded and I let myself help my mission and it seemed to have worked." I started, trying to give Jace what he needed to know. "If by help, you mean, sex with your mission, then I guess it's more than clouded. That is plain stupid." His words made me feel even worse.

"Look, my mission was to keep him away from hurting Tony or Pepper, right?" He nodded. "Well, I got it. Then, I saw this new app as an opportunity for Justin to stop trying to hurt Tony and start all over, so I took my chances. Turns out, he forgot about the revenge because the app gave him that clean slate he was so desperately looking for." Jace put his arms on the desk and stared at me. "How did you get to that? That's what I want to know." I sighed for like the hundred time and I stared at my brother. "I needed to do something stupid." I looked down and sighed. "Thor and I broke up." I confessed and I told him all about what had happened. Jace hugged me and I started crying like I have never cried before and I could not stop. "I can't breathe." As I ended saying that, Catherine broke in and just put my head in between my knees and sooth me. "She's having a panic attack." She said to Jace, who was too shocked to react.

I was so confused on what was happening that I did not know when I passed out. By the time I woke up, Jace was still next to me and Catherine kept caressing my head. "She's going to be okay; I'll leave you to it, now." After that, she left. "I did a few stupid things too when Clary and I could not be together. You know I slept around a lot and acted all tough, just to avoid talking about my feelings. I never talked about all the pain I went through, so I know what you feel, but please don't bottle it in." I started crying again, not as much as before. "Thor loved you, I know he did. So, maybe this new chapter is just the beginning for you. It will hurt, but eventually, you will feel that it's okay. Some stupid choices sometimes help, but please, don't involve the institute again." I nodded and let my head rest on his shoulder. I knew he did not want to hear what I was about to say, but I needed to lay it all out.

"It was not sex. He was the first man that really listened to me and everything I had to say. I listened to whatever he had to say. Our communication was excellent and when it became physical, it was mind blowing." Jace gagged and I giggled. "No details, please." I put my head on his shoulder again. "He was so mad when he saw the stabbing wound. He wanted to kill the guy who did it and that showed me that it was not just sex." Jace's reaction was to fist his hand. "I was not just some human that had fallen for the God and I don't really know why I'm being this idiotic. We knew it was not as serious from the moment he asked me if I'd leave to rule by his side and I declined." Jace jumped out of the couch. "He did what?" I looked at him confused, apparently, I had omitted that part before. "That's a marriage proposal, Charlie and you told him no, why?" I looked down and just shrugged. "I'm not ready to leave you just yet. I can't." He sat down and hugged me once again.

"I'm gonna say it and I will regret it immediately, but when the right guy comes along, you'll leave everything behind to be with your partner, even if I don't like him." He kissed my head. "I will always be jealous of your boyfriends, Charlie. But you have every right to live your life apart from me." I started crying again, because I did not want to imagine that. Jace was my life and I liked it.

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