Avenge the Shadows (I)

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CHARLOTTE'S POV

I did not know how to be around him without wanting to kill him or jumping at him, I was confused on those reactions. "Charlotte, listen. We have to talk." He called my attention and I hastily turned to look at him. "I know we do, Steven." He was taken aback by my response. "I hate when you call me that." He whispered and I felt his pain. "That's your name." I started to walk away. "I came by to talk to you before you went away." That stopped me, although I already knew that. "I'm sorry, Charlie. I know my actions made you angry at me, but I need some time off here too." He got closer to me. "Sorry doesn't fix bullet holes, Steve." He stopped me. "I know. Just don't cut me off yet." I turned to see his face. "What do you want me to do then? You promised you're different." He seemed regretful and I felt my walls crumbling. "Give me another chance." His voice touched my soul, because I knew that deep down, he was different.

At the same time, I was doing the one thing I did not want for him. "I don't even know how it's the same heartache." I confessed in a whisper, more for me than him, mainly to remember myself that I did not want to complicate his new life. "I know." He stopped and looked at me. "Why heartache, Charlie?" He questioned when he understood my words. "You were the one that said no strings attached." Fuck. I did not even remember that conversation. I was so busy trying to get into his pants that I barely remembered what I had said. "You were the only thing that kept me sane and connected with this new world." He breathed out and it broke me, because I was trying to give him the help he needed, without him realizing that I was doing it. "And I just pushed you away because I realized that I cared about you. More than I intended." Those words made my heart beat fast, I did not know what to say. "All you did was question whatever we did to help you."

I sat down and he did as well. "Your first reaction was us working for HYDRA, that's the trust you have on me. HYDRA level." That made me remember the whole thing and I was angry again. He sighed and looked down, for like the hundredth time. "I'm scared of losing everything again. I can't lose you like I lost Peggy or Bucky." That was the root of all his insecurities and all I wanted to do right then was to tell him that I was a Shadowhunter and that I could protect myself, but I could not. "I've lost a lot too; Steve and I'm trying to forget about it and focus on what I have now." I changed the topic instead. "That's the thing. I don't have anything now. I lost everything when I went into the ice 70 years ago." That hurt. "You and Cath were the ones I had and I pushed you away." He took my hands on his and I felt like he could light up my world in any minute now. "And we made it clear that you could trust us, but you didn't." He locked his eyes with mine and I could not look away.

"I know I messed up, Charlie." I hummed as another question popped on my mind. "Wait. What are you doing here, I thought you were in DC?" My gut was aiming to one scenario and I really wanted to be wrong, but his face showed me exactly what I was afraid of. "You're not going to like it." I rolled my eyes and I started walking away again. "I'm supposed to do some recognition around." His eyes furrowed on me. "And you're supposed to live in London. What are you doing here?" I sighed and held my head tall. "I just moved back here; Tony announced it a while ago." He bored into my eyes and I felt like falling from cloud nine. "Are you running away from me, Charlie?" His question sounded flirty and a part of me felt the need to flirt back. "Maybe I am, maybe I'm not." He showed a side smile and my brain shut off. "Because I'll follow you. I need to have you around, otherwise I'm going to lose it." His eyes were pleading me to stay.

"Let's start again. These months have been really bad. I feel empty without you. What do I have to do so you don't run away from me again?" My whole being wanted to kiss him there and then, but my pride was handling the situation. I stared at him for the longest time, just trying to prove that I did not feel anything for him, but I was too dumb to fight it.

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