Avenge the Shadows (I)

:: 1.106 ::

CHARLOTTE'S POV

Since we finished our costumes, we tried to look for places S.H.I.E.L.D could have taken him, but they had been really careful to not leave any trace behind. Days went by and we could not get more information about Steve and I was losing my patience, not even Tony had a lead. The only thing that kept me sane was Catherine. She usually made me focus in other things, thanks to her, we made it to the Halloween party. Tony was there and Jace could not stop talking about my poor boy-selection as he described it, which made me feel very self-conscious. "Wanna dance?" Cath asked Tony and he saw it as a way out for me too, so we three danced for the rest of the party. Once we were back, Cath and I went to the Greenhouse. "Do you think Jace is right?" I questioned her and she sighed before answering. "Talk to me, dude." Catherine held my hand and I knew she was trying to look the nicest way to tell me everything, without hurting me in the process.

"Well, I think Jace is looking out for you and he's being the overprotective brother he is." That made me smile, because I knew that was true. "Now, regarding his so called 'poor choices on boys,' I don't think he really meant it like that." Jace could be a handful, that was for sure, but now my whole mind and heart were not the same, so his words cut deep, mainly because I had let myself wonder too much with Thor and up until now, I did not know why I did that. "Thor was really good with you and he was a God, for crying out loud. You'll never top that one, for sure." That made me laugh as I was panicking. "I saw the way you looked at each other, it was full of love and care, but not like the love I see when I look at Magnus and Alec." I was trying really hard to control my feelings. "He was great for you, but he was just not your other half. You deserve the best and Thor was not it, you should see this as an out of the world experience." I was not ready to talk about Thor yet.

I could not say it out loud and she noticed my panicky breaths, so she kept trying to say funny things. "And for Justin, you cared for him, yes. I still don't know why, but did you get to feel what you felt with Thor?" I swallowed hard, because I had not thought about that. I had avoided comparing them, for obvious reasons. "I can feel and see it in your eyes that he was just another guy and I'm quite sure he won't be the last." I just stared at her, because she was somehow right, I was barely twenty and have a long life ahead and probably, plenty of guys. "Look, I'm not expert in love, I've barely had two kisses in my life and both were with the same guy, but I got this weird feeling about these kinds of things." She chuckled and I put my head on her shoulder. "I know it's rare, but I do believe that both of us have that special someone out there. I didn't use to think about these things until you came along." It was funny to think about when we met.

"So, that's why I do believe that we have those amazing partners out there. Someone who would look at you like you're the most important person in the world, and to them you will be. So, don't think about it too much, we're young and have all the time in the world to find our other halves." I sighed and nodded. "And lastly, I know how much Jace means to you and how his words have a great impact on you, but if he says something like that again, I will have to kick his ass again for being plain idiot." That made me giggle. "He had his fair share of one-night stands before and after he met Clary, so why is this different? Why don't you get to be with whoever you want to be with?" I raised my head and looked at her. "You're spending too much time as a mundane. You're all feminist now." We laughed at that. "I kind of like that." We stayed there for a little bit more and then, we returned to our rooms.

As much as I tried to forget about Steve Rogers, I could not let it go. I did not know why I was desperate to find him, all I knew is that I had to. No one understood this, not even me. I stayed looking at my ceiling, trying to think as Nick Fury. There must be a weakness in that chain, because I did not know how long I would remain sane without his whereabouts.

#charlotteverlac #catherineashdown #sebastianverlac #jaceherondale #thor #loki #aleclightwood #claryfairchild #izzylightwood #magnusbane #shadowhunters #tonystark #pepperpotts #brucebanner #captainamerica #steverogers #avengers #avengetheshadows #marvel #haileesteinfeld #maiamitchel #willtudor #domsherwood #chrishemssworth #tomhiddleston #matdaddario #katmcnamara #emeraudetoubia #harryshumjr #robertdowneyjr #gwynethpaltrow #markruffalo #chrisevans #newyork #London #Russia