Yosuke's POV:
Geez... Of course I want to be with him.
That's I've ever wanted, dammit.
So what the hell's stopping us?
I drop my pencil on my desk, putting my head in my hands.
It's not just Shin, is it?
It's the fear.
The fear of fucking everything up.
Because if I make one simple mistake, I could lose him for good.
And I can't. I can't lose him. He's the only one I have left.
What we have... it isn't something we can easily ignore. I get that, but...
If shit goes wrong, I don't just lose him. I lose my best friend. My partner, my lover.
That hurts way more.
I bite my lip.
The truth is, I can't picture myself being with anybody besides him. I don't want to be with anybody besides him.
But it could never work. I can't live without him. When he goes back to the city... Fuck. I have no idea what I'll do.
Annoyingly, I feel tears prick my eyes.
I need to touch him. I need to know he's there. I need to just... be with him.
I can't handle a long distance relationship.
I breathe out.
But... for Yu?
I don't know. Maybe?
It'd hurt me a lot more than it would hurt him, but...
I know it's gonna be me and him in the end. It always was going to be.
That... dumbass fell for me.
Ha... I know he'll be the only one to... So I know in my heart the right answer is to be with him.
There's nobody better than him. Not anywhere.
...I'm just afraid of what people will think.
Not of me, but of Yu.
Since his scars, he's been a lot more self-conscious.
The last thing I want is him being talked about because of me.
Because I know how that goes.
He'll go back to the booze. And he'll jump back in that hole I've tried so hard to get him out of.
I don't want that for him.
I don't want to put him in pain.
...Maybe... It's not such a good idea to be with him...?
My chest begins to tighten at the thought.
But the final bell snaps me out of my daydream, and I blink back to reality.
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Yu's POV:
"Y-you don't have to wait for me..." He murmurs, putting his stuff back in his bag.
"We need to talk," I say calmly, crossing my arms.
"I- I've thought about it," he swallows hard. "And... I think we should keep our distance from one another."
I narrow my eyebrows. "I don't believe you."
"I-it's my call," he stammers.
"You love me."
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With You (Souyo)
Fanfiction(Prolly still has a shitton of typos, feel free to point them out) Yosuke has never really been great at expressing how he feels. Certainly not to his partner, at least. He'd been... thinking about Yu differently since he left. And now that he's com...
