Aroace thoughts/rants

Late night thoughts #2

This is gonna talk more about my favorite character Reggie so sorry I keep talking about that but ya know I'm actually not because Reggie's amazing and I'll never be sorry for talking about him but I'm sorry if it bothers you.

Anyways.....

One of the worst feelings, in my opinion anyway, is caring about someone so much and them being your most important people, but then knowing you aren't anyone's most important person. Your friends all have boyfriends, and yeah sure like I have family but it's different with siblings. You have close moments sometimes and other times your rolling each others hair out. And my dad and grandparents love me like a child, which is fine but it's just different.

And I think one of the reasons Reggie my favorite character and I wanna give the sun, the moon, the starts, the whole universe, and all my love to him is because all his friends are either dating someone, or in Ray and Carlos's case they can't see him (he's a ghost and they are lifers but he always talks to Ray it's so sweet and he defended Carlos's childlike curiosity. If you've seen the show you know what I'm talking about, I know the o e person that's been commentating has seen it. Btw thanks for all your comments I'm so thankful). And since he's a ghost he doesn't have his parents anymore he doesn't even know where they are and when he was alive his parents were always fighting.

And I don't want him to have the same feeling of what I said before. The most important people in you life not caring as much about you as you care about them. I'd never want him to feel like that even if it's not true and his friends do valise him as much as he does him, I don't want him to fear that they don't.

I don't know.

I just wish I could sometimes escape to a world where romance didn't exist. Of course not forever because I'm not saying it's all terrible but sometimes I feel like I need a break but I can never have one because it's literally every where.

I feel like even know on my own head and my own like mind romance isn't above friendship, it always will be on like a societal stand point. And even if other people don't mean to do that I feel like I'm a way people always do it subconsciously even.

Side note it's so annoying that Jatp got cancelled and if that wasn't annoying enough, on every single video or post where the cancellation is mentioned there's multiple comments about "Luke will never know about perfectly harmony" like I COULDNT GIVE A FUCK (sorry) about that! 😭 the show ended with Nick being possed by Caleb and the boys glowing and escaping Caleb's stamp and your worried about a song Luke doesn't know about that Julie imagined. Like there's LOTS of other things and that's fine if like that's a big thing for you but it gets annoying for me to see so many comments about that and nothing else. And I made a TikTok about MY PERSONAL things I was mad about that we don't get to see, it was my personal list and like I got 6 comments about perfect harmony. Like that fine if that important to them but like I didn't put it in the video bc I really don't give a fuck. I really don't and I feel bad that I don't and I feel bad that I don't even like the song that much because the two actors wrote it and sire their talented and all but like I just don't care enough about the ship.

Goodness my mood swings are all over for no reason. I wrote this going into kinda sad and now I'm screaming. (Not literally but yeah).

I should sleep bc I have school in the morning but like now I can't and it's not even just that Nope I just can't sleep I'm not sleepy now and I'm like so motivated to work on my story I'm writing that has two aroace main characters and yes it has like a tiny bit of romance it but like it barely does, I don't even think any of the ships end up together or even kissing it's very much like them just being friends at first I guess idk I haven't written it yet.

Like you know when you just wanna stay up and think. Not even because you can't stop thinking, you just don't wanna stop thinking.

We are getting way off topic so I guess I'm gonna end it here. Thanks for reading my late night rant and I hope you all have a good day/night, take care 💚💜