So I'm 18. I'm not gonna be a teenage much longer and I've been thinking that I'll never experience teenage romance. I don't really want to, but it's that FOMO that gets me.
I know I don't want romance. But my chances of having teenage romance are running out, and its not something I can always go back and try if I decide I want to. I know I'll never want to, but I'll still never get to experience teenage romance like everyone else and I guess it's like I feel left out.
It's the same thing with prom. Everyone says "you only have one senior prom" and I didn't even go my junior year. I don't want to go to prom. I don't like dressing up, it would be a waste of money to buy a ticket and a dress for something I won't even fully enjoy. But then people go and say "you only have one senior prom" making it seem like this golden opportunity and you only have one chance. I know I don't wanna go to prom, but I also don't wanna miss out.
Just like I know I don't want romance. But you can only have teenage romance for so long and once it's over it's over. Another term for teenage romance j hear is teenage dream but those things aren't synonymous.
Can't I have a teenage dream without romance?
I hope so. But to be honest I don't think I've lived a teenage dream yet and I'm worried I'm gonna look back on my teenage years and realize I did nothing.
It's kinda why I wanna publish my book when I'm still a teenager. So I can at least say I did that in my teens. But also like does it really count after 18 bc technically I'm supposed to be an adult. I don't feel like one though. I feel younger than most of my friends who are about to turn 18, turned 18 after me, and I have one friend who's 17, she's a year younger but like I still feel like I'm 16 and it's like she's 18.
Anyways. I know I can have a fulfilling life without romance. It just doesn't feel like I have had that yet. Like I have friends sure, but we don't really hang out often especially since I have like 1 friend who actually goes to my school but we don't have any classes together anymore because of the new semester and new classes so I barley see my friends and it's just idk weird. Bc I feel bad when I say "I have no friends" because I guess I do but I never see or talk to them it feels like.
Alright we'll that's all I have to say. Thanks for listening, wishing you all the best. Hope you have a wonderful day/night, take care 💚💜
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