I had off school today because of cold weather and all I wanted to do was write. Write my story No Regrets. I woke up at 5:30 in the morning, (I thought I had school) and checked my phone to see schools been canceled and I was so happy. A normal me would go back to sleep. But I got up, and I was like "I'm gonna spend all day writing"
I start writing. I make it to nearly 30k words, I'm feeling good. I'm happy with my self it was then 7:30 (I didn't actually write for 2 hours I kinda sat around for 30 minutes to an hour before writing) I go downstairs get some breakfast come back up to my room and continue writing and then my chrome book stops connecting to the wifi. Google docs is apparently supposed to work offline but it wasn't working offline and it never had for me. It kept saying page not unresponsive.
Like my phone is connecting to the wifi just fine so it's my Chromebook that's the problem. It stopped working at 9am. It's current 2pm and it's still not working.
I wanted to write all day. Or most of the day. But I can't because Google docs isn't working.
And now I'm even more upset because I created this new TikTok account and the Jatp edits found me I've gotten 2 on my fyp both juke and I'm like this is the reason I left the fandom like stay away from meeee. (It probably doesn't help I used a Jatp hashtag once or twice in my video because my book is inspired by Jatp so it's relevant) but like why do the edits have to be of juke 😭 like no offense but all the offense.
And it just makes me wanna work in my WIP even more because "yay platonic love! More love and appreciation for platonic love!" But I can't so instead of using my anger to write and get it away I have to sit with my anger and sadness instead of using it to fuel my writing and get my book out to be the platonic love story of the century. (Not really, probably only like 10 people will actually read it) but like it's just so annoying now because I have all this passion built up inside me now to write because of that video and all the others romance things I see and I can't use it and so the passion turns unto like frustrated sad anger.
Anyways that's all have a lovely day/night everyone, thanks so much for listening. Take care 💚💜
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