Aroace thoughts/rants

What am I supposed to do

Okay so like I saw this video about like fictional crushes and how it gets awkward bc the fictional character doesn't age but you do and you keep aging. And like honestly I think it's weird to have a fictional crush on someone way younger than you like even if at one point there was no age gap. And then some people just pretend they age with them which is less weird. But like still to me it feels weird and it's not something I would personally do I'd just move on from the fictional crush.

But I don't get crushes. I don't even really get fictional crushes. But I do get fictional squishes/platonic crushes. I say all the time Reggie from Jatp is my best friend. I watched the show at first when I was 15 almost 16 which is younger than Reggie. I'm 18 now, which is older (he's 17). Which 17 and 18 isn't weird. Most of my friends are 17 because of the way our birthdays fall and stuff, I'm older for my grade.

Anyways. It not that weird now to call him my best friend but like once I get into my 20s it's gonna start feeling weird. And like I could just pretend he ages up with me but I feel like that's still weird and he's a ghost so he wouldn't age anyways and even if it's not weird it would make me feel weird. But like he's actually one of my only friends so like it's gonna suck when I age too much 😭

So like what am I supposed to do. Have him age with me and feel a little weird for it or say goodbye to one of my only friends when I get too old.

This doesn't have much to do with aroace stuff I guess, I mean just the fact it's not a romantic fictional crush but yeah. That's all I have. Thanks for listening and I hope you all have an amazing day/night. Best wishes, take care 💚💜