Michael: "Baby come on you're eighteen now, you're legal" Michael purrs, his fingers toying with the button of your shorts "I - I'm not ready yet Michael" you stammer, he smirks and shakes his head "you say that all the time kitten, it's no big deal. Take a couple shots, get a lil' drunk, and you won't feel any pain" he chuckles, grinding his erection against your leg, one hand creeping up your thigh "Michael please, I'm begging you please don't...please" you whimper, starting to tremble, the lust in his eyes dissappears to be replaced by guilt "you're shaking. You're shaking baby" he states, shock evident in his voice "...you're scaring me" you whisper, he frowns, moving his hands away from your body, tousling his hair loosely instead "I'm sorry" he murmurs, propping himself on his side to look at you "fuck...I'm so sorry angel" he tilts your face towards him, his thumb rubbing along your jaw "please don't be scared of me baby...I would never hurt you" he whispers, taking your hand in his and pressing his lips against your knuckles, you nod, cuddling into his side, your head nuzzled against his neck "I love you" he murmurs, kissing the top of your head.
Calum: "You're being such a baby" Calum mutters, his voice muffled as his lips travel up your neck "no I'm not" you snap, trying to push him off, but his body is hard as rock and he doesn't budge, his large hands keeping you pinned to the mattress of his bunk "Calum stop it" you say in your most threatening tone, but your voice wavers, your fear showing through "it's just sex baby" you can smell the alcohol on his warm breath and you suddenly realize why he is being so forceful "Calum please you're drunk" you whimper, but he ignores you "help me! Ashton?!" You scream out, knowing the older boy is also on the bus, Calum covers your mouth and you feel your eyes swimming with tears, slowly being forced to accept what is about to happen. But as if in slow motion, you feel Calum's body moved, the air filled with insults and then you are pulled out of the room, the door closed and locked behind you. "Are you okay?" You look up to see Ashton, his eyes filled with worry "he didn't do anything to you did he?" You slowly shake your head "I've never seen him so drunk" he murmurs, running his hands through his hair, you lie down and close your eyes, forcing yourself not to cry, drifting to sleep after a few hours. You wake up to find yourself curled up in a bunk, a sober Calum sitting at the foot of the bed, his head between his knees, you sit up slowly and he snaps to attention "Ashton told me what I did" he whispers, his eyes are red and swollen, his lip bleeding where he'd sunk his teeth into it one too many times "I'm an asshole, I know. I don't deserve you. I can't believe I was going to..." He breaks off, his voice cracking "please forgive me" he breathes, you bite your lip and nod, hugging him gently, burying your face in the crook of his neck.
Ashton: "I missed you baby" Ashton murmurs, groaning as you bite his lower lip, you are straddling him, your soft hands running up and down his chest as he desperately fights to take control of the kiss, you pull away, smirking as you tease him, ghosting your lips over his and watching him strain upwards in search of contact "tease" he chuckles, his hands dipping down to the waistband of your shorts "Ash" you warn, he ignores you, hooking his fingers over the fabric and tugging gently, you frown, pulling away "Ashton you know how I feel about-" "oh come on (Y/N) it's getting a little old don't you think?" he laughs, you scoff and raise your eyebrows "five months ago you wouldn't let me kiss you because you didn't feel it was the right thing, four months ago you wouldn't let me touch your boobs because you didn't feel it was the right thing, three months ago you wouldn't stay over at my apartment because you didn't feel it was the right thing. For two bloody months now you haven't felt this is the right thing and I'm tired of it. You need to sort out your priorities babe, because I know you've been with other guys, so I know you're not scared of it hurting" Ashton rants, his bare chest rising and falling rapidly. You bite your lip and move off of him, turning your back to him, he sighs and you feel the bed shift as he moves closer, resting his chin gently on your shoulder "talk to me" he says softly, his lips touching your skin lightly "I had some bad experiences Ash, and I was forced into doing a lot of things I wasn't comfortable with, with a person who I thought I could trust" you murmur, rolling onto your back and gazing into his warm hazel eyes "every night I go to sleep with that in my head and it's terrifying, the smallest touch can bring all that back in a flash. Since then I haven't been able to let anyone use my body the way he did" you breathe, Ashton frowns, smoothing hair out of your face "I'm so sorry baby girl, I-I'm such an ass. I never knew...just know that I'm here for you okay? I'll take care of you baby" he reassures you, hugging you close.
Luke: "You know...I had a dream last night" Luke whispers, his chest pressed to your back, you hum and he places a small kiss to the spot below your ear "nothing too dirty, it was just you and me, and nothing else mattered except making you feel good" he murmurs, his breath hot against your neck, you gulp, goosebumps forming on your skin as his fingertips graze your thigh "I want you to help me recreate my dream princess" his voice is low and smooth, dripping like honey as his mouth leaves hot wet kisses along your jaw "what do you say?" He smirks, his fingers slipping into your panties "Luke...no" you whimper, grabbing his wrist "oh come on baby, don't do this again, it won't hurt" he mutters, you bite your lip and shake your head "Luke I'm not ready yet" you say quietly, your face flushing "princess, come on...don't you want me to be your first? You said it yourself just last week, you can't go back on that now" Luke whines, you sigh and turn to face him "I do want you to be my first Luke...I just don't feel like I'm ready to do it yet" you mumble, he tucks a strand of hair behind your ear and smiles gently "I'm sorry baby...I shouldn't be pressuring you...I just can't wait to make love to you and really make you mine" he murmurs, pressing a kiss to your forehead.
