Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 125: My Hearts in Boston Part 1(Nikki-Perry Sixx)

Before we got into the Perry Family settled in Boston: I.E Joe, Myself & our five beyond amazing children. I'd like to first take you back to March 3, 1995. Now there was a day I could NEVER forget, well one day among many as you know by now as Joe & I relate to you our epic love story. Anyway, as Mick always says, 'On with the Damn Show...'. There were so many tears this day, so many tears.... ones of joy, of relief.... god, the sheer relief. Tears of sadness, grief.... every emotion you could name. It was so surreal, I literally had to keep pinching myself at times that day. I remember pictures being taken, I remember Joe's scent surrounding me as he kissed me and kissed me.... Hugs from my oldest girls, our family helping us with Frankie, Tony & James who seemed to love all the attention. I was helped into a wheelchair, Josephine & Amara at my side.... Josephine kept a watchful eye on her siblings & me especially & then once we made it downstairs. A shock, a GOOD one of course. Joe had arranged for a private Bus that would comfortably fit our family of Seven to take us to Boston while the rest of our family would travel by plane. After I recovered enough to speak, I remember tearfully saying to my husband, "You Joe.... god, are always.... I mean every day is the best day of my life because of you, and our children." He got my additional meaning......the ride to Boston, well the triplets didn't know what to make of their new temporary environment. Lot of rough nights & days, but we got thru it we made it & got settled in our Boston Home & the triplets especially calmed. Now, now our family could truly begin to heal & where you mind me is Joe & I sharing some time together and well as always you will see....

It was rough getting here, at least sleep wise.... Joe & I were up a hell of a lot, but we wouldn't trade those moments for the world. Josephine was a huge help; she IS but too we made sure she didn't do like I often do & overdo it. Amara was like Joe, steady...calm, which also helped. But now my hearts in Boston, MY family is......

I just checked on my five children, all of whom are sleeping away still. I slipped out without waking Joe, loathe to leave his hold. I am eager to return to his warm embrace, I re-enter the bedroom to find Joe, sitting up in bed his eyes light up upon seeing me & a smile crosses his face making my heart stop a moment at his look.... how he always looks at me.

"Hi."

"Hi yourself...." Joe says lowly before adding, "I figured you went to check on the kids & I imagine our five little angels are still sleeping & ok."

"It's.... good to SEE them, to SEE you...." I murmured, suddenly finding myself frozen in place & finding myself suddenly in tears. It really is good to see my children, to see my husband....to SEE them not just in my dreams. It's just hit me....and NOW, NOW I feel those arms I love & know so well encircle me. My head resting in the crook of my husband's neck, just FEELING him.

"Oh babe, babe I can only truly imagine how it feels to LOOK at me....to LOOK upon our children, to OPEN your eyes.... eyes, that I always find myself getting lost in.... getting lost in you Nikki..." Joe murmurs, gently stroking my back before pulling back enough to gently caress my face with one of his hands, "I would say the feeling of seeing you look back at me.... Well, it's everything. I love you. I love you, Nikki."

"I love you too." I whisper. That's MY Jo-Jo Bear, he just KNOWS me. He knows my needs, my wants.... knows what I am thinking & feeling with or without words & right now, its just US & how I have missed US. And there is something else......

"I know that look...." Joe murmurs, eyes glossy from tears. "You NEED me.... baby, if you're ready, I am here to make you FEEL." Joe's hands are gently roaming my sides now, him beginning to place kisses up & down the sensitive skin of my neck.

"Doctor said.... sex.... was fine.... Joe PLEASE...." I murmur, moaning in between kisses.

"Your wish is my command HONEYBEE." A hot whisper in my ear & next thing I know is I find myself naked, kissing & reaching wherever I can....and I vaguely am aware of being layed down in our bed, my body growing more heated by the moment. Somewhere in this, YES if you are wondering if the door was locked.

I AM still in tears, just feeling emotional.... needing Joe, I don't need prep..... which is why I after I share a searing kiss with Joe....

"N-Need....  YOU NOW......I wanna ride you babe...." My voice a mix between a moan & a growl & I hiss in satisfaction my back arching as I get in position & sink down upon my husband's length and not gonna lie, I fucking leave planet earth......

Skin on skin, echoing in the room.... Joe kissing me fiercely, and I want MORE...MORE of him and more I get. Each thrust, each sensation now.... heightened. I have fucking missed this, the feeling of being truly one....

Harder & harder.... the bed creaking heavily, time loses meaning....and suddenly now, I feel myself nearly black out as the sheer overwhelming pleasure reaches its crescendo.... Joe capturing my lips, once more....as together we share our release.

No, we didn't wake the children. Thank God. I mean if you just so happen to be wondering.

I come back to myself to realize that one I am being held in the shower....and I find myself looking into my husband's eyes, getting lost.... getting found in HIM. Joe's eyes are filled with tears......just like mine.

"THANK YOU....and I know Jo-Jo Bear.... I know." I whisper, Joe gently kisses me....

We do end up getting clean, Joe changes our bedding & takes it to be washed & somewhere in all this we get dressed and when my husband joins me in our bedroom, three loud cries sound over the baby monitor....

Joe & I make our way to the nursery or rather my husband picks me up and gently carries me there, carefully setting me on my feet as together we then work to soothe our three youngest: Tony, James & Frankie who each get changed ( Including bedding) and have downgraded to fussing as I get settled in a chair, and beginning to feed my children and Frankie is the most impatient as I pull down my t-shirt and she latches on, Joe helping me support her while James & Tony Fuss. Before Joe can get any actual words out as he starts to say something, he & I hear two precious voices at the door....

"Momma we heard babies cry, they, ok? Can we help?" Josephine asks.

"Pease?" Amara adds on.

Softly I speak, "You girls come in & see them....and see me & Daddy." Soon both girls enter & Amara is near Joe & I, hugging us as best she can. Josephine too is near, watching over her little brothers. And God is my heart so full....so full.

This, all of US right here in this moment....is what we all need. We are in a place so special, so magical....and really what makes it magical is the seven of us together.

"And Josephine? You two ARE helping.... you and Amara, just by being with daddy, with me and your siblings. You both are amazing big sisters." I say.

"Well said Nikki, very well said." I feel more than I see Joe smiling. And I hear the pride, the love in his voice. Frankie continues to feed her eyes...MY Joe's eyes staring back at me, and God how I love that. And too I hear my sons make cooing noises KNOWING they feel love in this room, KNOWING.

We will have our moments.... our times, our bad days.... but we are here together, I am alive to see and feel all of this & we are healing......I am, and I am not, nor will I ever be alone, ever since I met Joe, I have never been alone, even when I did not see. This, our family being together in Boston is just what we need.

A/N: Sweet, Heat & a little bit of everything. Next up is part 2!