Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 123: Recovery of the Heart & Soul Part 3

I had so much to be thankful for, grateful for.... You name it when Nikki was alive that we didn't lose Frankie nor our sons, that he would WAKE. I can never truly express what that means to me, nor can I express how much it meant to me for him to sacrifice so much to bring our children into this world. We went thru hell, my family and I.... but we never gave up on one another, we leaned on each other more than ever. Was it easy? No, it was hard as fuck a lot of times mixed in with the bitter-sweet. Nikki my beloved Honeybee's recovery physically was hard. It was hard to see my husband struggle, to see him HURT....and to cry. It was hard for my oldest children to watch. I guess my point here is this: I only fell more in love with my husband, how could I not? I was and am so fucking proud of him, how far he came...his determination and his love for me and our children. Nikki had his bad days, so did I and so did Josephine especially.... but we, as I said, all talked to one another, no matter how much it hurt. We supported one another. And there were good days, and then it's like I blinked, and it was March 1, 1995...the end as it would turn out of Nikki's recovery and you will see he and I together, us sharing a moment...and well as always you will see....

I am with my husband, it's just he and I.... The babies in the nursery & our oldest with family, whom will be brought in a bit. We're walking the halls together, hand in hand....and I MARVEL at the fact & the tears they come....

"I feel that way too Joe..." Softly, tearfully as we come to a stop & Nikki step into my embrace, "---That I can do this, that WE are doing this. I couldn't have come this far without you, this.... this hasn't been fucking easy, but you've been by my side every step of the way. I am ALIVE today, because of YOU. You've saved me from dying twice. You.... god...." Nikki breaks down as I hold him closer to me, him sobbing into my neck.

"N-Nikki.... I know babe, I know.... I feel & see how much it means to you to be able to walk & not be in so much pain. That we're walking TOGETHER. And for the record? I would do anything, ANYTHING for you & I would save you & our children over & over again. And....and at the end of the day we've saved each other. and I am PROUD of you, so proud." I caress Nikki's cheek with one hand, gently wiping his tears and I KNOW what he wants......

Time seems to slow, as my lips meet my beloved's and stops completely as our lips work together in harmony with one another, till reluctantly we part for breath....

"I just wanna stay here in this moment just like this...." Nikki whispers before adding, "And really, we will.... but I believe the Doctor is coming soon." Nikki looks nervous, anxious and really, I am much the same. I assure him that it will be ok, that I will never let him go....and before I know it, with me helping him of course. Nikki and I are back in his room and the Doctor comes in and gives us the BEST news & oh the tears....

"I have good news for you both, Nikki we believe has recovered enough to be released from the hospital within the next day or so. He's made amazing progress, and your triplets are at a healthy weight along with having all their needed shots & so you will all be released together. If there is anything we can do for you both or your family, please let us know."

Nikki and I share a stunned look....so moved, grateful.... you name it and at last I manage to find my voice, "THANK YOU.... just thank you..." I pause a moment, "Could you please contact our family, we wanna let them know especially letting our oldest girls know?" The Doctor promises to do so, and I give them the number & then its once more Nikki & I, holding one another.... sobbing, sobbing in joy....in relief.

Neither of us can find anymore words.... not at this moment.... we just continue to cry & hold one another for a while until at last Nikki speaks, voice cracked.... containing many emotions, pulling back enough to look at me.

"This.... this.... doesn't feel real, but it IS real. F-Finally.... finally.... i mean, this is the.... I mean wow..."

"Oh Honeybee, I hear you...I feel you. This is the greatest news & God, I can't WAIT to tell Josephine & Amara in person....to tell Tony, Frankie, and James......" I paused a moment in thought before smiling albeit tearfully. Nikki looking at me as he always does, that look of awe & Love, such love. "---Did I tell you I have some surprises in store for us & our kids in Boston?"

Nikki smiles & truly it is breathtaking & those perfect lips of his part, "Knowing you Joe, they will be just as wonderful & amazing as you are. And our family really needs this time together. Although, I gotta say you are all my home.... whenever we are together, that's home to me." I caress my husband's cheek, him holding my hand. Those green eyes of his glowing brightly even thru the sheen of tears.

"Nikki..." Unable to say much more, but of course he KNOWS. We don't need words he & I, and once more I claim his lips.... a slow kiss, just talking about my time. Nikki and I always lost in each other. "I love you." I tell him after we part for air.

"I love you too, so much." Nikki replies before his tone & Look turn sly, pouting playfully, "—Sooooo, can I find out one of my surprises?"

I smirk before I can feel a grin form, my tone soft. "I can never say 'no' to you....so I've been talking to our family, they've of course insisted on getting things ready for our Boston stay.... well to surprise you, ALL of them will join us in Boston. They insisted."

Nikki's eyes widen & it takes him some time to respond but once he does, "Wow.... wow, they.... just wow." He manages to get out, stunned but touched to his core, I can tell.

"And that's just for starters...." I say, before adding, "Thank you, I just want to say thank you Nikki.... none of this has been easy, I've been a wreck. We've been that way, but you've gone thru such hell...I nearly lost you this time.... I guess my point is, thank you for everything you do & have done for me. for being mine, for giving me your heart, giving me children. You don't truly know what YOU & everything you do means to me, I just wanted to tell you." Crying now, Nikki in much the same way....

"I could argue much the same.... much the same..." softly, tearfully & then a nurse comes in & informs us our family is on the way & I turn to my love & say, "How much do you wanna bet, they will bring whole stores of stuff with them for us?"

Nikki laughs, "Oh it's a safe bet...." Before adding, "I'd have it no other way, no other way & I can't wait to have all our children together too."

Me too my dearest Honeybee, me too....

Speaking of the said children: Tony, James & Frankie would be brought in before our oldest & our family arrived. And what I'd told you about our family bringing whole stores of stuff with them? Well, you know & I know, of course, it happened and as Nikki said, "I'd have it no other way."

A/N: tears, good news, bitter-sweet moments, laughter, a little bit of everything. Stay tuned for the next chapter!