Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 134: 10 Years Since Our Forever Part 1 (Nikki-Perry Sixx)

Today, today is the day that 10 years ago on THIS date of May 10, 1988, Joe asked me to marry him & we married on the same day. I was pregnant with Josephine at the time, and I remember being SO emotional...how special it all was, and that Aerosmith was amid rehearsals for the Donnington Festival in 88'. Most of all? I remember that I was and still am SO fucking head over heels for Joe....it as always him at the core of my memories. And speaking of TODAY.... May 10, 1998.... Joe has something special and romantic planned; a surprise and he'd only tell me he's been dreaming about it for years. But if I know my Jo-Jo Bear, it will be AMAZING, beyond amazing just like my beloved husband. And at this moment, I am getting ready, having just finished teasing my hair being held back by a bandana that matches my eyes & am working on my make-up......

I miss the kids, my five babies.... they are growing up, so fast....and I love being their mother and its hard to believe there was a time, a lifetime ago I didn't believe that I'd have or be at where I am now, but I wouldn't trade it for the world. They are with family, but in honor of mine and Joe's anniversary they made us gifts which Josephine helped them with & that's so special, more than special because its THEM, from the heart.... the most special hearts.

More time has passed than I realize, as I finish my make-up & NOW, I see JOE, feel his arms wrapped around me and THAT LOOK, takes my breath....and I find my self in the same state as he.

"WOW.... just WOW...." Joe is speechless, eyes wide.... filled with tears & looking at me like only he can. I find myself blushing giving in kind. Dressed to kill, both of us matching.... black suits & Ties. The ties are my eye color.... Joe's favorite color as he always tells me. Joe's suit fits him like a second skin.... I mean DAMN, I am a lucky bastard. And I wasn't lying when I told him, 'You no lie only get better looking with age, only ever sexier to me.' I find myself running my fingers through his hair, much shorter than it used to be, but HE LOOKS SO DAMN GOOD. "---I feel you, Nikki." He whispers, breath ghosting across my lips as he claims them feasting like a man starved....

"I love you." I pant after parting for breath.

"I love you too, so much honeybee...." Joe leads me to sit on our bed, not letting me go, "—Nikki, 10 years ago today we became one. For the first time in my life, I WAS and AM in love, that I found it.... found YOU my other half. But 10 years ago, feels like fucking yesterday to me. I remember that day, those rehearsals.... you were so sad, already dreading my going to Donnington.... but I was struck by how BEAUTIFUL you were, still are. You were pregnant with Josephine, looking so radiant despite your sadness and I had for the first time with you and only you found someone to spend the rest of my life with, my first TRUE marriage. You've asked me so many times over the past 10 years how did I know that not only you would say 'yes' but marry me on the same day? Nikki, my heart knew.... I knew, it was only you I could see sharing a future with and today and forever more I wanna keep sharing that future with you, which is why...." Here Joe gets to one knee and pulls out a box revealing a stunning ring, one with a bee & Bear twined together, covered in diamonds, I bring a hand to my mouth eyes wide....make-up ruined due to the tears i feel running down my face, not that I give a fuck, "For our 10th wedding anniversary, I wanted to not only honor that day, but US and so I wanted to surprise you by renewing our vows....so Nikki, my honeybee...will you do the absolute fucking HONOR of marrying me again?"

It takes me some moments to find my voice and after what feels like an eternity I find it, tearfully replying with, "YES. Hell YES." Joe slips the ring on my finger & next thing I know I am surrounded by and feel him as we kiss, i.e. making out for a bit before reluctantly pausing for breath. I do pause long enough to re-do my make-up, which was a miracle because Joe & I couldn't take our eyes from one another......

I have a feeling, such a FEELING of what is coming.... but knowing my Jo-Jo Bear it will be the most romantic surprise, an epic one.... amazing, more than just like he is....

I am broken out of my internal monologue by two things: One, Joe kissing me & I lose myself as always in him & 2, he tells me to close my eyes, which I do so feeling myself smile and I can hear his breath hitch & delicately he places in my arms....what feels & smells like roses, their perfume wafting thru the air. At last, I open my eyes & feel them widen....

"You're gonna need these..." Softly, as I glance from Joe to the roses in my arms, 10 of them to be exact & all in my favorite color: various shades of blue. "---Now what do you say we get married again?" Softly, but now his smile is on full display & I can feel myself match.

"Hell yes, no lie Jo-Jo Bear,"

"Ditto Honeybee, my dearest honeybee."...Joe leads me outside, telling me to close my eyes again & keep them closed as I hold carefully to the flowers with one arm, feeling myself helped in a car & I lose myself in my husband as he keeps my lips occupied the entire ride.....and once again, I feel myself lead & we stop Joe telling me to open my eyes & I gasp....a stunning garden surrounds me, lights strung up, "---Nikki, this path we are standing on now started 12 years ago when we first met, and our path to forever started on THIS day 10 years ago....now, at the end of this path, I have something WONDERFUL in store for you, for US and I can tell by the look in your eyes, you know....well this path will lead you to me, and remember no matter what or where I am at in the world, I will find my way to you."

Choked I manage to reply with, "JOE." The look in his eyes says it all to me, he KNOWS. He kisses me senseless, my mind reeling & heads down the path & next thing I know, I find Josephine at my side......looking so grown up in her dress, her hair so like mine wild & elegant at the same time, having stepped out of another side path and she says....

"Daddy said to tell you, that 10 years ago I was there in your wedding 10 years ago, not yet born & here I am today, here we are today. Tony, James, Amara, and Frankie are here too.... Daddy has more surprises for you Momma, and so Happy Anniversary to you & Daddy......oh! Daddy wanted me to walk you down this path, he said it would be special just like us."

"Oh, sweet bee, THANK YOU. And Daddy is right, so very right." She takes my free arm, holding it to her as she begins to lead me down the path & when the path opens up I see: JOE, with our youngest children.....i see our family seated, I see a white carpet covered in the petals of my favorite roses, and I feel the tears come as time stops as Joe & I lock gazes.....those precious & beautiful tears flow.....

At this moment, time has ceased and the sound Joe, the sound of OUR hearts beating together in time rises above all. A wedding, you're giving me a wedding for our 10th anniversary.... oh Joe, my Jo-Jo Bear......

I hear another beautiful sound now, the sound of strings playing a song....a song that has been many years in the making, one made for ME....and now, I feel Josephine leading me gently forward as I walk down the aisle towards the other half of my soul and I FEEL, I feel so much love....so much happiness, it takes my breath away, Joe's eyes never leaving mine.....his eyes wide, jaw dropped.....

A/N: The first of several parts dedicated to their 10th anniversary/wedding vow renewal, I know this part is left on a bit of a cliffhanger, but I promise it will be worth the wait. So more to come soon!