Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 152: A Sudden Storm Part 1 (Nikki Perry-Sixx)

I am in sheer fucking MISERY.... I HAVE BEEN for the past year, i.e. for a while now. It all started with the miscarriage I had back in August of last year, it fucking KILLED me & I couldn't have more children or so, I was told anyway, it killed me.... killed Joe & still my husband was right by myside. He saved my life that day, sadly we couldn't save our baby & I blamed myself. I no we, clung to our five precious, precious children even more so.... but then I noticed around November I started gaining some weight, a couple of pounds or so. Which I felt and still do insecure as fuck about, but my JOE....my hero, my everything has never made me feel ANYTHING less than desired & cherished...and loved. But again, the weight gain...the miscarriage, we weren't & aren't alone....so much love & support.

But NOW? All these months since about October-November.... constant back pain, more weight gain & NO ONE can tell us what's wrong?! And it kills me that I'm not pregnant, I feel like my fault.... I've been tested.... it's just.... PAIN...right at this moment.... the back pain today has been particularly bad.... Joe is on stage right now, Aerosmith in fact is on a tour.... kids are with family, Mick...I THINK...Joe reluctantly left for the stage, but I Know he'd drop what he's doing.... but I am SCARED....SO SCARED right now....

My breath coming in pants.... curled up in a ball, Joe wanted me to try & rest if I could (and I could see it in his eyes just how worried he was & what else he didn't voice) ....and I miss him right now, but I can't.... the pain is.... FUCK! It HURTS!!....and I look down to see some blood in my jeans & I FREAK...

"No!" A strangled cry.... NO... not a miscarriage!! I stumble to my feet.... screaming in pain....and I manage to find a bathroom, barely managing to lock the door....as the stain grows, as I pull down my pants.... & grip the seat HARD.... something wet & warm.... gushing out of me.... sobbing, broken...out of it.... SCREAMING from the pain...SCARED....

Here is as it turns out, I would find out later.... but here is where: Josephine followed me as she was worried about me & knew something wasn't right....and she would get Mick to help....and well you're fixing to see....

"Momma?! Momma.... open the door.... please?! please?!!...." OH SHIT! One of my children.... but right now, I just CAN'T.... can't place.... can't concentrate......hearing another voice suddenly.... it's not Joe.... but I KNOW it. Hushed murmurs.... the pressure increases and I feel something, something.... NO....NO....and I hear banging sounds....

-Josephine Nicole Perry POV-

Something is seriously WRONG....something has been with Mom for a while now....i felt I had to follow him, and Uncle Mick as it turns out followed me....but I told him to HURRY, TO get DAD & to get an ambulance.....and NOW, I am trying to break down the door & suddenly I DO.....to find:

Mom, screaming.... clearly out of it, clearly SCARED. And I can smell blood.... mom, he's babbling about having a miscarriage.... but I feel my eyes widen.... SOMETHING says it's NOT....and we didn't know.... Ok, Breathe Josephine.... breathe, moving now.... gotta calm down mom, gotta help him.... GOT TO.

Getting down in the floor, feeling scared.... helpless, I do my best to calm mom...raising my voice a little bit, "MOM! Its me....Josephine....you need to try & calm as much as you can....i don't think you're miscarrying..." Mom somewhat listens still not fully there, as despite his protests I steel myself....clean my hands, realizing I have no choice but to do what I am about to, removing his pants.....i see lots of blood & I look underneath his 'parts'....to see a BABY'S head already somewhat out. "---You're having a baby momma.... dad...dad's coming.... help's coming.... but you MUST PUSH...." I take one of his hands & place it on the baby's head, him & I both still very much shocked but it seems he's aware enough to LISTEN, as he screams.... pushing....

'I was so scared delivering you....and your sisters.... the triplet's birth, but I did what I had to for your MA.... I'd do anything for him. I didn't know what I was doing it felt like, but turns out I did after all'....I hear dad's voice in my head as I get mom to focus enough to push, remembering what dad ALSO said about supporting the baby as they come out....and I go with my gut, being careful...despite my own fears & just as I HEAR dad's voice....and a slew of other's....I hear a LOUD cry.....and I cry, in shock....feeling so many emotions...

The wails of a baby, A BABY fill the bathroom.......and I realize......

"Josephine?! Nikki?!...." Suddenly Dad is at my side, his eyes wide & in tears & mom passes out, freaking US BOTH out. "Nikki...come on.... come on.... you gotta wake up...." His voice cracks, "Don't leave us...we have a baby.... we have a baby."

Things start happening far too fast.... cleaning the wailing baby, cutting the cord.... the ambulance comes, dad & I refuse to leave mom.... everyone else.... i.e. Uncle Mick I am sure are coming & I can't MOVE....and wait?! Are we at the hospital now? Is mom......is he gonna be, ok?!

I feel myself held tightly, DAD.... rocking me back & forth sobbing....and I let loose one of my own....and after an eternity we both calm down enough to talk. And I look into my father's eyes, seeing the shock from the scene he found.... the PRIDE & THE LOVE despite his worry over mom & my new sibling.

"You.... OH HONEY.... we didn't...I didn't know.... he was pregnant.... but.... I AM SO PROUD OF YOU; I need you to know that. It's a hell of a lot to take in, but you did it anyway.... you delivered you sibling....and you may well have saved your ma's life."

"Daddy.... I...I...." I am unable to find words if I TRIED, but he KNOWS of course.

"I hear you sweet bee.... I hear you. I love you."

I tell Dad I love him too, and after forever a nurse comes out....

"Mr. Perry? Congratulations, as it turns out you have a healthy baby girl. Your husband is sleeping but we anticipate he will be ok.... thanks to your oldest daughter's quick actions...." More words follow, things about blood loss, it being a miracle it wasn't worse...which it is a miracle by the way & we're told our family is on the way.... but the nurse tells us my new sister will be brought soon as well & we can see mom shortly......

"Wow.... Wow.... THANK GOD. Thank God..." Dad murmurs crushing me in a hug, and I hug him back just as fiercely before he cups gently my face in his hands, "---Josephine, you are your ma's oldest twin...and just THANK YOU.... You saved your ma's life! And your new sister is ok, your ma will be & I still feel guilty...that I shoulda KNOWN....and I...."

"Dad stop..." I cut him off, "Neither of us have anything to feel guilty about, though that's like easier said than done."

"You're right sweetheart.... still, I have one hell of a daughter in you." He says, tearfully. "I have SIX amazing children, God.... i love you all."

"Well, I have one hell of a father in you Dad & a mother.... I am amazing cause of YOU guys. All wow...six of us are amazing & Daddy? We love you too." Dad only cries harder, so do I but he I can tell is VERY TOUCHED as he hugs me once more & we wait on the arrival of a sudden but beautiful Storm, a surprise but already so loved Rainbow baby....my little sister.

A/N: A dramatic birth, shock, awe.... a little of everything. But the baby is here & ok. Nikki will be too in time. More to come soon!