Tours used to FUCKING suck and that's being polite, course you know the reasons why: drugs, booze, DOC (May he rot in hell) etc. And that all changed the night Joe & I met nearly 40 yrs ago in 86. And once we had children? Well of course, the kids would travel with us when they could & we would end up alternating which of us would be on tour and at home with the kids......So, of course the point is my family came first....and I was SO beyond lucky & grateful to have Josephine with me (her opening with Alice) in 05. How could I not be proud of her? It wasn't easy for her to be around strangers, but she did it anyway.... now I guess my ultimate point is, I missed Joe & our other children fiercely & as always, we came back to one another......And July 1, 2005? A break in the tour, a much NEEDED break cause I wouldn't fucking miss my youngest daughter's birthday for the world....She was mine and Joe's rainbow miracle, coming after a devastating miscarriage & her birth was scary, but my oldest angel saved mine and her littlest sister's life & where you will find me.....is on my little rainbow's 2nd birthday.....her & I together.....
I literally slept all day yesterday, after arriving late the previous night & well of course Joe & I after checking on the kids locked the bedroom door & we had some seriously passionate shower sex, there I said it.... but now, it's me & Storm, my youngest....and I find myself crying, but not tears of sadness....
"Mommy?" Storm's little features are clouded in concern. "You k?"
"Oh, sweet rainbow.... today, today is your birthday.... you're 2 years old today." I give her a watery smile, "—It's a miracle, you are.... We both are. Happy Birthday Storm."
All the hell I went thru during the miscarriage....after, the physical pain....the storms.....was more than worth it, I mean the miscarriage still hurts BUT as I have found, those Storms brought us our little Rainbow Storm & it is OUR hero....mine and Joe's I.E Josephine who brought her sister into this world....saving her life & by saving mine.....
Her little eyes, a combo of mine and Joe's I swear fairly glow.... It's so heartwarming & what really gets me going is the following:
"Daddy Tay' (Say) Josey hep me an ew', save life.... that it berries pecial'."
Before I say anything the voice I love and know SO well sounds out....
"It's true princess.... that shows how very much we love one another, love YOU.... cause that's what family does...." I meet Joe's eyes & see the tears & the love, the sheer love....he greets me with a kiss, tender and I can't help but smile into it & then Storm naturally wants her father & so then it is the three of us for a bit until we're surrounded by our other 4 children minus Josephine....and my brain kicks in, as I realize I smell the most delicious aroma's of chocolate & raspberry, along with breakfast......
"Josey thought ma..." Tony begins & it strikes me hard in a good way at the fact that my son is growing up too damn fast & more & more like his father & I would have it no other way, "---Since Storm like the rest of us are obsessed with her favorite cake, make that for Storm's birthday & her favorite breakfast and....."
"Pancakes! PA 'Cakes! Lotta cakes!" Storm interrupts her older brother & claps her little hands in excitement, bouncing in Joe's arms, as we all laugh....
Before long we all head downstairs with our precious birthday girl & the morning passes by in a blur, as breakfast is consumed.... the cake is frosted & cooled Storm's birthday dinner is planned & soon Dinner is upon us.... Storm's gifts sent from family, piled in a corner & so much love & laughter.... truly home is the best place to be, cause I am with my family....MY family.
Joe squeezes my hand, as always touching some part of me & he whispers to me....
"I feel you Nikki.... oh honeybee, do I feel you.... look around, surrounded by our children & so much love.... it's just amazing that we're all here together & celebrating Storm, its everything to me."
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