Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 189: It's a Kind of Magic (My Beloved Honeybee & I)

Spending time with my children, truly there is nothing I would rather do or no where I'd rather be......and how much I love them all more than words can ever express & it's all thanks to my beloved Honeybee: Nikki. Love, truly it's a kind of Magic.... I watched tv with the kids for a while, checking on Storm often & we even got some jamming in & Storm had woken wailing since it turns out she had an accident.... but I got her clean (Clothing & Bedding included) & ultimately back to sleep. Now, now it's getting late.... Storm is asleep again and Tony, Frankie, James, And Amara knowing them are likely still up, but are in their rooms...and now, now the phone is ringing and....

"Nikki!! And Josephine..." I answer, tearing up a bit and feeling much calmer hearing those voices I know & Love so well.

"I know Joe, I feel the same way..." Nikki answers in the same way I do, I hear it and feel it.

"Hey Dad, I really miss you.... mom tried to get me to go to bed cause like I need rest, but I'm not sleepy....and I totally had to get my 'goodnight' in." My eldest daughter, stubborn just like her mother and I LOVE that. Knowing her, she IS tired. Still, I know too the post shows how high she is feeling and that you don't know how tired you truly are till you are still.

"I hear and feel you Nikki....and Josephine, I hear and feel you too. I miss you both so much, we all do sweetheart. If you're wondering, your brothers & Sisters are in their rooms, likely or are still up. Storm's sleeping again after she woke up, our poor rainbow had an accident, but she's ok. And Josephine? Please get some rest honey, I know you're tired more than you realize."

"Ok dad, good night.... love you and give my love to everyone."

"I love you too and I will sweetheart." Some moments pass, the murmur of Nikki's and Josephine's voices and then....

"Fell asleep soon as her head hit the pillow, life on the road ya know?" Nikki chuckles before his tone shifts to an emotional one, softly asking me, "---Now I hear it in your voice Jo-Jo Bear, and I really fucking miss you." That's MY soulmate, echoing my thoughts perfectly. We are so in tune with one another, 17 years married....19 we've known each other & a lifetime more with Nikki? Hell yes, I can go for that.

I sigh tearfully, "I fucking miss you too, like holding you at night......but ya know how you wear my sweatshirts & you I know are wearing one as we speak? I've been wearing your t-shirts, to feel like you're holding me.... they still smell like you." I pause a moment, "I felt so much calmer hearing your voice, Nikki."

"Oh Joe, I feel the same.... the same....and we're always together even when we're apart. Every day, every moment I realize how damn lucky I am you came into my life." Nikki, we saved each other.... all those years ago, in the end I got thru to you and oh did you get thru to me....

"I love you Honeybee...."

"I love you more...."

A thought occurs to me, a surprise (one among many I have in store for my husband, which blew me away & God I am proud of her), "---Well I must tell you, Amara.... Amara wrote a song, Nikki.... god, it blew me away. Course then again it comes as no surprise.... but anyway, she called it 'Life is Beautiful" and said it was inspired by your Heroin overdose & us nearly losing Josephine. It made me cry, but God.... it's so beautiful." Full on crying at this point, as is Nikki.... not that anyone could blame us.

"C-Can you.... sing it?" Nikki asks, and I of course knowing the words by heart do so & afterwards Nikki says, "---Holy Shit, wow.... I think...no I know we should do it, the Hollywood Vampires I mean."

"I agree babe, I agree."

"So proud, we have really taught our children well." Nikki says & truer words have never been spoken....

Nikki & I talk about our children some more, we talk about everything.... listening to one another, leaning....and I swear I feel his heartbeat in time with mine.

"SOOO...." Drawling it out, feeling a smirk form on my face. "--- Fuck with Tommy anymore?"

Nikki laughs quietly so as not to disturb Josephine, "Course.... he may be family, but its oh so fun to do & watch."

I laugh, "I have rubbed off on you babe."

"Did you know Mick actually helped?"

I laugh.... we talk awhile longer before Nikki yawns hugely, "---Nikki, honeybee please get some rest ok? I worry about you." Tenderly.

"Ok Joe, my Jo-Jo Bear.... i love you & I will see you in my dreams, and I know you'll see me in yours, still the sweetest dream would never do cause I'd still miss you baby...."

"---And I don't wanna miss a thing...." I finished. "And I know you'll come back to me."

"Always."

We say our 'love you's' again and hang up & I feel myself getting misty again.... i am tired, but I must check on the children again. Quietly I slip out, checking on Storm first, her still sleeping away peacefully clutching Bee-Bee. I kiss her little forehead, whispering to her how much I love her before checking in on the triplets, whom are amazingly all asleep & then I come to Amara's room & I Hear noise from within......

"Dad, you can come in." Amara questions. I slowly & carefully open the door.

"I was checking on your brothers & sisters & you...."

"I can't sleep daddy." I join my second eldest daughter on the bed, her immediately hugging me.

"Talk to me sweetheart...." Softly.

Amara sighs before answering me, "I just really miss mom & Josephine....and the song I wrote.... I just really felt I needed to write it. Its.... was therapeutic."

"I miss them too honey, we all do and as for the song?" Amara looks up at me tears in her eyes, "---That's one of the best ways to get your feelings out. I imagine it wasn't easy & what it reminds you of.... well, honey I am SO proud of you." I pause, "In fact I told your ma and well he said we must do it.... the Hollywood Vampires."

"Are you serious?" Awed.

"Yes, he is so proud of you and so am I. never doubt yourself sweetheart. Honestly it blew me away, though it should surprise me cause your ma & I have taught you & your siblings well." I add on, "Before you sleep remember what we've taught you.... think of the ones you love Amara."

"I will daddy. I love you."

"I love you too."

Amara murmurs a 'goodnight' & moments later she is asleep.... i smooth back her hair, kissing gently her forehead and I whisper....

"I just want you to know.... I can never express how truly proud of you I am. Not just because of how talented you are, but because you are my daughter. You are YOU. I know you wrote the song to help you cope with what you've been thru, and you are so damn brave, you're a hero sweetheart. Your mine and your ma's, you're SO much like me & I love that....one last thing: if you need me, I will come running, always."

"I remember you Joe, telling me what you whispered to her that night. She had been thru so much, it really hit her hard with what happened to Josephine and me.... like you, if we went, she would follow us...." Nikki murmurs quietly.

"Oh Nikki, Nikki.... babe, I hear you...." Getting my husband's true meaning. "We'd do the same for her.... for all our children and now our grandkids.... our children had been thru so much, born in the spotlight.... had been thru hell at such young ages..." Memories, so many memories flash before me now, "---But then, they at such young ages made their own legend.... they became legend."

"God how true is that? They are our greatest legacy....and when they played Wembley? God, the world HEARD them and found out what happens when you Mix Aerosmith, Mӧtley Crϋe & add some Queen. Pretty fucking epic, but then how could it be ANYTHING less?"

Nikki is very much right and we're gonna get there, believe me you, but before then I will let my beloved take the reins for our precious Rainbow Storm's 2nd birthday.

A/N: hope you enjoyed the chapter and more to come soon!