Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 127: Family Time & Love (Josephine Nicole Perry)

I love being in Boston, it's a very magical place. I love my family: my momma, daddy, Frankie, Amara, Tony & James. I am super happy, so happy that momma is alive & doing well and so are my brothers and sisters. The love is the magic daddy say, the love we have for each other......we've taken my favorite family walks, spent time with Uncles & Aunt's & the other night mommy and daddy had 'date' night. 'Date Night' seems to be a super special grown-up time, but momma and daddy missed us all lots. Right now, quiet time......Tony, James & Frankie napping. Amara too I think, I don't know what time it is.... but I am in my favorite fuzzy chair drawing with the art stuff momma got me for Christmas. As momma said, getting lost in GOOD ways.'

And daddy say in my head a lot, "You can get lost AND found in the ones you love.... here it's a good thing, the best thing."

I hear a noise, knocks on the door and one of the bestest voices ever: Momma.

"Josephine? Honey, can I come in?"

"Yes momma."

Momma comes into the room and hugs me before finding a seat. He gives the best hugs, besides daddy of course.

I don't see daddy or brothers or sisters and I ask, "Where daddy & Brothers & sisters? They, ok?" I am starting to get upset, but momma ALWAYS knows what to do and makes me feel better. Momma he hugs me, running his fingers thru my hair....my wild mane just like momma's.

"Hey.... It's OK. They are here, and they are ok. Daddy is with them downstairs & they are doing fine. We miss you down there, but hey if you wanna stay up here more that's ok too. Know why?" I whisper 'yes', before momma says, "Your father taught me Josephine that we're always together even when apart. Our hearts are together and no matter what or where I am at in the world, I will find my way to you."

I think and tell mommy, "I wanna be with everyone. It makes me feel better." Course mommy knows what I mean, cause mommy smiles now. They 'understand' as daddy says. 'They just know.' 

"I know how you feel Josephine, believe me. I love you."

"I love you too momma......" I think a moment, "Momma can I show you what I draw?"

"I'd love that." I handed momma my sketch book & momma's eyes go wide and look from me to what I drew, but he looks so happy & proud. "Wow, honey this is US. You're really getting good at this."

"I wanna be like you momma, I love making stuff & creatin' like you say. I wanna be an artist and a rock star like you and daddy." Momma is in tears now, but happy tears.

"That.... means so much, so much more than you could ever know sweetheart."

Soon I & Momma join our family, I must hug everyone....and check on my brothers & sisters and talk to them....

"We have lots of love here, can you feel it? I bet you can, that's what momma and daddy always say. I love our family, and I know you do too. I love you.... Tony, James & Frankie." I kiss each of their little foreheads & they make happy noises. Amara is playing with her toys.

"You are the best big sister, you're amazing. You take after your ma." Daddy hugged me now, looking over babies with me. "So, what do you want for dinner later?" Daddy asks now. I glance and see Momma watching Amara and babies and me an' daddy too. Momma he looks happy....

"OOH! Can we have that roasted garlic chicken and those arty 'chokes an' Cucumber salad please daddy?"

"Sounds good to me...." Daddy turns to momma, "Nikki? What do you think? The roasted garlic chicken, roasted artichokes and cucumber salad?"

"Perfect."

Spending time with family, healing as my parents say. We have our moments, 'triggers' as momma has told me, but we are always together....

We spend time watching tv, I eat my favorite snacks of Raspberries & Olives. Amara likes figs.... Momma feeds Tony, Frankie & James again.... potty breaks, diaper changes and I help, I just love taking care of everyone. Before I knew it, it was dinner time. And I was daddy's helper, mommy helped too while looking after everyone as he always does, just like I do too and now we're all sitting down for dinner & talking. The babies make happy noises.... they are happy, I AM happy....

"You look really happy sweetheart." Daddy

"I am daddy, I am......mommy safe, I safe.... brothers & sisters are safe. There's lots of love, so much love. And I have 'bad' moments and still I know I not alone and that its OK." I find my face is wet now....

I feel a large hand gently wipe away my tears......daddy....and mommy....

"Its more than OK, sweet bee. Its ok to be emotional, to be happy.... sad.... Those moments come & go, those bad moments. I am proud of you, of ALL my children. Your just like your ma, and I love that."

I hug daddy, momma and my brothers & sisters carefully before eating more & talking. Amara and momma and daddy, make sure I ok & we talk, it really helps.

"Joe? I had an idea for while we're here." Momma says to daddy, looking at me and he smiles....and it's the most beautiful smile, Amara and Frankie have it.

"Oh?"

"Well, I thought that maybe, well I haven't been, and that Josephine would enjoy the Boston Museum of Contemporary Art."

"I think that would be an amazing idea, Nikki!" Daddy grins before asking me, "What do you think Josephine?"

"I would love to go daddy! Momma always says it gives you lots of ideas for making all kinds of things and...and I wanna be an artist too AND a rock star." Daddy chuckles, because I am excited.

"Honey, I have NO doubt you can do those things, you can do ANYTHING you put your mind too. And Momma and I will always love & support you, always." Daddy is more serious now, but I feel again so much love. Momma agrees with daddy....

"We're proud of you, and I can see and know how much it helps you. I am proud of you, of your sisters & your brothers. Everyday with the five of you, I learn something new, you do something new and it's the most amazing thing. It really is, remember that, Josephine."

I will remember momma, always....

"Sissy mazin' like ew mommy an' daddy!" Amara sounds just like daddy, momma always says. I hear my little baby brothers & sisters make happy noises and Amara tell them, "Ew think so too! Josey best big sissy eva!"

I am with my family, making new memories.... safe, happy, loved.... Daddy was right, bringing us to Boston. It's healing' as he says, as my momma says too. But really, they mean it's love & all of us being together.

I will draw more after dinner or write in my diary, especially about the art museum, but i wanna play, my guitar too and I am SO excited about that! The museum too!

Dinner is so good, and I eat till full & the babies fall asleep before dinner is eaten.... They love to sleep. They need lots of sleep, cause they still growing and I ask momma if it's ok, I draw more & then maybe practice on guitar.

"Josephine its more than ok honey, and I think that sounds absolutely wonderful."

I really do have the best family, and I love everyone so much and they love me so much....

A/N: I thought Josephine needed a chapter, loved how this one turned out and there is more to come soon!