Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 126: My Hearts in Boston Part 2

As Nikki has said, the trip to Boston which took a few days was rough.... Lots of lost sleep for him & I. Also, for Josephine & Amara. However, we wouldn't trade those days for anything. We were just happy, beyond happy and THANKFUL to all be together, that Nikki was ALIVE and able enough to do things....

Boston was indeed just what my family needed, once we got settled in our Boston home.... there was such RELIEF. It was huge in our mental healing, especially for my beloved husband. And of course, new memories were made & would be made. Speaking of memories, I believe the last time my husband left was when he was nursing Frankie and our family of seven were together. It was peaceful.... some much-needed peace. Frankie did get fed, as did her brothers. James was the greediest, I mean he didn't wanna stop.... Tony though, gave a run for James' money and Nikki quipped, "I am honestly shocked I'm not bone dry.... but they take after US, so it stands to reason." Nikki was teasing, smiling as he said that and really, it's one of my favorite memories. One among many....

Now, where you will find the Perry Family is in the kitchen.... Nikki sitting with the triplets, and Amara in her toddler chair as Josephine helped me with fixing breakfast.

"Daddy?" Josephine asks, "Can we maybe go on one of our family walks? I've really missed them & I think babies would like too."

I share a look with Nikki, who is taking care of Amara, Tony, James, And Frankie. Amara too is helping in her own special way. Nikki's eyes have the sheen of tears, but not tears of sadness.... I then look down at my oldest daughter and say:

"Sweetheart, I think that would be WONDERFUL. We, we can do that."

More conversations follow, tears.... laughter, just a beautiful.... beautiful feeling and before I know it, breakfast is ready, bathroom breaks (Including diaper changes) are taken, and we're all settled at the kitchen table. Tony, James, and my Nikki's precious youngest daughter Frankie making cooing noises. As always, I must FEEL Nikki, touch some part of him while we eat and those beautiful, beautiful words flow......

"Tasty Daddy, tank ew beakfast!" Amara exclaims, enthusiastic and really freaking adorably I may add.

I chuckle, "glad you like it and your welcome little bee."

"I taste lots of love daddy...." Josephine smiles softly, a reflection of MY smile though the expression is pure Nikki. "—Its magical feeling like momma always says."

"It REALLY is magical." Nikki agrees adding on, "—It always has been, always will be. The best feeling in the world." Nikki's voice grows husky from tears, gently I take one of my hands and thumb away his tears despite my own....

"It really is Honeybee.... it's grown so much since the night we met & it was damn strong then though we didn't know it & from here it will only grow stronger." I whisper.

"I love you...." Nikki whispers, and we share a kiss. Afterwards, the girls ask/make sure we're ok & the triplets too are fussy or started getting that way when Nikki started crying, but before long all is calm....

Soon breakfast is finished, the kitchen clean and then chaos.... Amara must use the bathroom, Tony, James & Frankie start wailing......likely getting sleepy again & poor Amara doesn't make the potty and has an accident & Josephine disappears HIGHLY upset. Nikki is worried, I am too......so as quickly as we can, Amara is cleaned.... the triplets' diapers are checked & changed & I tell Nikki....

"Hey, I've got them...."

Nikki's gaze is sad & knowing, he perfectly of course echoing my thoughts. "And I'll go talk to Josephine, I have the feeling...we do as to why she's upset & I know if you will join me as soon as you can & if you need me sooner you will let me know...." A quick kiss and Nikki soon head to Josephine as I start singing to soothe my fussing sons & daughter......and finally they drift off to sleep, I kiss each of their foreheads & whisper....

"Things are gonna be ok, I promise you.... We are still healing. There may be days or times when things get rough, but we will get thru them cause we got each other always."

"Always daddy...." Amara whispers, as I pick her up holding her in my arms.... her head resting on my shoulder....

Nikki Perry-Sixx POV

I know Joe has everything well in hand with our other four precious, and I do mean precious children. Truly he is a beyond amazing father, everything a father SHOULD BE. Right now, though? I am worried, sad.... WISHING I could take away my oldest daughter's pain, and I know exactly what has trigged her....

Amara having an accident trigged memories of Josephine's own during her kidnapping.... the pain, those triggers.... those MEMORIES, come back often coming in over you like a crashing wave with you powerless to stop it. I know very WELL how she feels, so very much like me....my clone after all. She is not alone, neither am I.... we are NEVER alone....

I find Josephine, not in her bedroom.... but in mine and my husband's bedroom, clad in one of Joe's sweatshirts.... curled up in a ball, crying her little eyes out. Carefully I approach her, slowly & gently sitting on the bed & next thing I know she dives into my arms, as I hold her......

"M-Momma? I.... sorry.... I didn't mean to get upset when Mara' have accident...."

"Oh Honey, you can't HELP it.... there's nothing for you to be sorry for or about." I pause a moment, "—You were triggered by your own accident during a very scary-hurtful moment in your life. It comes on & you can't control where & when. It's happened to me so many times, still does."

Josephine looks up at me, face tear streaked & eyes wide....

"I understand momma, but I hate when it happens."

"I know honey me too, but you & I have each other.... We have daddy & your brothers & sisters to help us with it. And it's OK, OK when it happens and as much as it can hurt....in the end we will get thru it & come out stronger."

"I love you momma."

"I love you too." I hug her tighter to me & I sense her other unspoken thoughts, "Daddy is taking care of your brothers & sisters, who I think will take a nap, they need one and he will join us soon."

Josephine says, "You part alien momma? You sound like Uncle Mick a lot."

I laugh, "Maybe I am.... maybe I am." ....

Joe did join us not too long after the moment my oldest & I shared. We talked about what happened, what was talked about....and if you are wondering, Joe had one by one carefully placed our triplets & Amara in their bed/cribs for naps. And the rest of us ended up following suit....

I remember well after morning nap time; we would have family time.... Joe, Josephine & I am practicing/jamming together with Tony, James & Frankie constantly making cooing noises, lying together in their bassinet and I mean they LOVED it, only natural after all. Lunch came, followed by everyone all bundled as it was still chilly out & the seven of us went on one of our much missed & Beloved family walks. Too it was a healing walk, that's how I've always thought of those moments and today it still very much so rings true. 

It was a bitter-sweet day, a perfect day.... a plethora of things really, and oh those precious memories were of course made. Where you next find us, a few days will have passed & you will see....

A/N: Part 2 done! Next, I am thinking about doing a chapter from Josephine's POV, stay tuned for more!