Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 140: Jo-Jo Bear & His Honeybee (Part 4)

Time moves ever forward, yet many moments last forever. I treasure each moment.... like earlier, talking with our five children. Hearing all about their day, and it struck me just HOW much Josephine especially was growing up. She sounds more grown up I swear by the day. Amara, God.... she is my oldest twin.... calm, collected & hot headed when she wants/needs to be & such a talented musician already at 5 years old, going on 6. As for Tony, James, & Frankie? God, they are 3.... their personalities on full display, learning new things....and all five of the children I share with my beloved Honeybee share such a close bond, it means everything. and speaking of my Honeybee, my Nikki....after the phone call with our children, we just held one another for a while....him with his head resting in the crook of my neck, one of his hands on my heart....before we made love & napped for a bit....Now, I after leaving my husband a note & am getting started on Dinner....and I feel & see those beloved tattooed arms I love SO damn much, turn me around....

I wrap my arms around Nikki, who looks at me like only he can....and it hits me hard, in the best of ways...the look I love & those perfect full lips part & form words.

"I got your note...and Joe? I got the feeling you were thinking about the kids and me..." Softly.

"I was babe...always." I reply before gently kissing him, but naturally it deepens before we part & I smirk as I know what will happen later.... because I am currently shirtless, nothing on but sleep pants. And Nikki blushes, fishing for words before he manages to calm enough to say or rather ask....

"Umm..." Still blushing a bit, making his green eyes pop, "—Can I help you? I just wanna be with you."

"Nikki..." I breathe, "You never have to ask & I would have it no other way." A gentle hand on his cheek, he nuzzles my palm. A gentle kiss we share & then Nikki helps me prepare dinner, one of our favorites: Garlic Chicken with roasted artichokes & Cucumber salad with Balsamic.

As we cook, I must as always touch some part of Nikki & vice versa, we talk about plans, our children & just anything & everything. As always honest & open, completely. And no lie, I can only fall even more in love with Nikki each passing moment......and before I know it, dinner is done & so we sit down to eat, close to one another.........

Nikki pauses taking a bite & I see the tears in his eyes & I feel them in mine as he looks at me, taking one of my hands which I oh so gladly give him. "—Each & every moment with you Joe is special, I treasure them. I know you do too. For our 10th anniversary, you wanted to give me a wedding.... the whole experience. It meant so much & it DOES. It's the US, ya know? Laughter, tears, humor, heart, HEAT and those moments we've spent talking to our children. And....and then I was thinking about, 'I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing.' The music video being released next month with 'Armageddon'. Joe, its.... I mean your SOUL, such a beautiful & I do mean beautiful song about the love.... You have for me. I feel it's gonna be a huge hit, like huge but it means so much because you did it for ME."

At this point, Nikki & I have paused in eating.... him now in my lap, me just holding him, as his head rests on my chest. Both of us in tears, and his words.... have touched me to the core, HE has.

"Oh Honeybee, my dearest honeybee...." I murmur, "I'd do ANYTHING for you, cause you deserve the fucking world, always have even before we met. And YOU are my soul, always have been even when I didn't see. And I feel you babe, I feel you. Everything I do, is for you Nikki.... for our children. And the song? It took me a lifetime to feel that way, YOU changed everything the night we met. And only you could have made me feel this way....", Nikki pulls back enough to look at me, "Once I realized it was YOU, everything fell into place. I had someone, something to fight for & still do & always will." We share a kiss, slow & sweet & linger a bit before we dry one another's tears & finish eating.

Dishes are quickly washed, the kitchen cleaned & I take Nikki by the hand....

"Joe? I wanna cuddle on our balcony.... on those cushions, you holding me & watch the waves from our bedroom." Nikki's eyes are bright & glowing.

"We can do that Nikki, its sounds perfect especially cause its with you babe." Softly, and I note the slight blush adorning my husband's cheeks & I can't help but smile, taking it in.... taking in HIM.

Me leading him by the hand, time stops....my heart beats wildly.... the anticipation, the feeling of home & suddenly time starts again as we settle among the cushions I'd earlier set up on our balcony, Nikki now with his back against my chest....in between my legs & I wrap my arms around my love, loving being close....

"Oh Jo-Jo Bear....my Joe. It's so peaceful here.... But ya know something? I feel most at peace, calm when I am in your arms where I belong. And too, when we are with our children."

"Ditto no lie.... you are my serenity, my drug.... there is NO ONE better than YOU, never will be. You only you Nikki, as I grow old." Carefully we manage to kiss & the world around us disappears......

I remember that night so well, we sat out for a bit.... lost in each other before our children called before they went to bed & then we made love half the night afterwards. The rest of our 2nd Honeymoon passed in much the same way. Each day, each night getting lost in each other.... making new & precious memories, talking to our children constantly. It was perfect.

Before we left, Nikki had the idea....to collect seashells & mini bottles filled with sand from 'our spot', enough for each of our five children.... telling me, "This way each of them will have a piece of a such a special place with them. And it will mean so much to share something special with them. He was and is the perfect mother, the perfect partner.

"I remember that 2nd honeymoon, the wedding renewal vows....it was all so perfect. I wanted to share pieces of our special place with our children, so they'd always carry them with them."

"It was Nikki, still is..." I murmur now, gently running my fingers through his still ever wild mane. "---They were with us all the while and God, I'd missed them so much, but they were such amazing smart children, they KNEW. And today they still know very much know.... Remember our homecoming? God was that epic. I cried, you did.... we all did, the joy of us...our family being together. And the kids all had a hand in doing special things for our homecoming. And then...then things got busy with the movie and the song.... well, you were right, but it all meant SO much more because I had you Nikki Perry-Sixx to share it with."

"Always & forever Joe, always & forever."

A/N: A perfect 2nd honeymoon.....next I believe I will do Retrospective chapters @ least 2 parts which will mean a time skip & oh so excited for the coming ideas I have!