Right Kind Of Wrong

me

They describe me as .. Melanie the girl who has dated most of the popular guys but don't put out. Lol. I'm known as the make out queen ,the tease ,the goody girl .I don't give two shits what they think. I'm me. I love to cook !! I love to sing. And my music teacher at school says I have an awesome voice. Idk... but it's something I love. It gets me out of my head when I'm all stressed about my home life. Which is horrible. Mom's difficult to say the least. And both my sisters are on drugs and there men are the worst .I haven't yet to meet any boy ,guy ,or man that I respect .they all seem like douch bags only wanting one thing .. and we'll I'm just not interested. I have goals and mainly that's to get away from here ... I have dated lots of boys. And one of them still comes to see me every now and again but he has a girl friend who actually puts out. Lol. I'm just not there yet .and ain't guy ever been enough to make me wanna go there.. Tammie and I left the house and went straight to the bowling alley . But Tammie has refuse to stop talking about what life will be like living with Jason .. and to be real honest it is on my mind ,but not in the same sense , I don't trust guys at all. I've had too many try things and one guy wasn't taking no for an answer . So yes it's on my mind that he lives in my house now. But it scares me .I'm not excited at all. I just keep thinking home is suppose to be the one place u feel safe. And now there are two men living in my home. Which has never felt safe. But now seems even more unsafe .. Tammie and I met up with a few friends and played pool and then hung out ,outside with all of our friends till 11:20pm. At which time we knew we had to get our asses home mom would be there soon .. no being late ever. So we asked our friend to take us home now!!!! We walked threw the door and saw ,jason a sleep on the couch .he looked so cute. Wait what. ..never mind lol Tammie and I went to my room where we started stripping immediately! ! Got into our bed clothes and got comfy decided to watch mtv. And eat candy we had bought at ikes.. we talked about her issues with her boyfriend .. and I confessed in such a girlly fashion that jason had looked so dam cute on the couch .. Tammie gave me the don't u dare stare for like 3 mins then was like oh wow ur in trouble. As we went to sleep that night ,I just couldn't shake this feeling of being a bad person .. the next morning as mom was screaming for us to get out of bed sissy was here I had totally forgot that these two intruders were still here and walked ,ran out of my room to go get sissy from my mom . As I took my 2 yr old niece from my sister who actually was still holding her daughter. . Total surprise . I realized I had on some seriously short shorts and a very thin tank top .which I would sleep in ,in the summer but wasn't allowed to be Seen in such ... so I took my niece whom I'm raising 80% of the time. Which was the deal I made with my sister not to abort this child. I took sissy and ran back to my room . Tossed sissy on the bed and grabbed some clothes. Got dressed quickly grab sissy and ran back to the living room to see what mom was gonna say do next. Mom would beat us to the floor if we didn't respond immediately. So yes I've been running my whole life. Mom looked at me pleased that I'd found my clothes .. pleased I use loosely. .. she told me I'd have sissy for the next three nights sense I was out of school those days which wasn't at all surprising. I would have went and got sissy had my sister not brought her over. I have sissy every single time I'm not in school. Sissy freaks if I'm out of her sight. She hates to go home with her mom. She would live here full time if possible. Mom is getting ready for work and tells me all I need to have done before she gets home .. this is every weekend. I can say it all before she does. Or as she does. In my head ..but I look at the floor and agree .. sissy is holding her hands up to my mom .. sissy loves my mom. Her grandma .. my mother has 4 grandkids. And will only have sissy over .sissy is the only one who gets to my mom's frozen heart. Mom takes sissy and holds her for a few mins and kisses her face. Then tells me to get her. So she can finish getting ready for work. I stand there waiting on further instructions. ..... mom says take her to ur room . So i leave holding sissy on my hip. I walk to the living room to swoop up sissy bag of clothes, and Jason is standing in the door way. He ask me who is this cutie.. sissy says I'm sissy ! He's smiling so big. He says well I'm jason . Ur too adorable. Sissy being 2yrs old says da dbl or something. She didn't really say adorable. . But she tried which made us both laugh. He said how about just cute. Sissy says I cute 49 times in a row after that. And even tells Rick ,and mom as she's leaving for work. Tammie is now dressed and  mobile .. Tammie comes and takes sissy from me and is loving her to pieces. . While I make sissy a cup of milk ,and myself and pepsi. Jason scoots.past me and says something I'm didn't hear ,so I ask .. I'm sry what did u say ? He said oh nothing. Laughed and went out side. With his dad. .. this urk me just a bit but I have to take care of the house , my niece ,and my home work .. I have a paper I'm writing. So no time for anything else .... after Tammie took sissy outside for a lil while and I got the house cleaned up I put sissy up to the table to color while I made dinner. Jason came in the house sat down at the table and ask sissy can I color with u . Sissy all smiles shakes her head yes and gave jason her crayon ...Jason sat there coloring that page for like 30 mins as I was putting dinner on the table I saw the page he colored. It was Minnie mouse...