Right Kind Of Wrong

not playing Ur games

This dance looks maybe a Lil to sexy for school ,but send everyone is pushing there limits these days. . I rock the hell out that dance. I'm sry but I just knew that I did so very well. The whole school stood up and was screaming and clapping .. we did that !! Oh wow. OK so back stage everyone is cooling down I've drank to bottles of water ,my fruit water. And I have to go pee. In the bathroom with 10 other girls I've now set down .. I've stop moving sense I first saw the dam fb romance. . And it hit me like a wrecking ball. I burst into silent tears. Like flood gates. .. I'm in full on heaving sobs. I just keep thinking I'm so stupid !! He's been playing me . He don't love me. He's been playing me so hard. She lives out there where he works. He comes home later and later every fucking night. Yes I'm stupid !!! I knew better .. OK I clean up my face I have to go see who won .. we all stand back stage waiting. ... they call third place it's a girl band .. they call sec place and it's ...ME .. yay . I walk out on stage and I'm so happy. I worked so hard .. all my friends stand up and cheer .. they call first place and it's Adam !! We won all the girls I danced with say come on Melanie .. we go out on stage and are hugging Adam ! We are jumping around loving this moment. When I walk out the door ,the one that leads to where all the other students were in the audience. . I see him coming toward me. He has roses in his hand .. I have said in my head 7 times in 7 secs don't hit him don't hit him. Just don't make a scene . Just except the dam roses for now and walk away .. when he reaches me and then hands me the roses I take them and look at the floor. He puts his arms around me and says I love you .I'm so proud of u .. I look at him serious and say I have to get back in here. He looks puzzled . I turn to walk away ,he grabs my arm but not tight or in a mean way just to catch me. .. I turn to face him .he says what ? I say go home jay I have two more hours of clean up I'll see you then .. I remove his hand from my arm and walk away quickly. . As I'm entering the dressing room I think I'm gonna break down. .. but I see the drama teacher and she is telling me how proud she is of me . We hug and she says we can clean up tomorrow go celebrate with Ur friends !! So not even thinking I just grab my bag and head back into the school I go to my locker and take out the two books I'll need this weekend . I've got my book bag full of school stuff , my clothes bag for the talent show all my make up and clothes .. and my very large purse full of stuff. So I'm loaded down .. I walk all the way to the other side of the school to the back of the school really where I told Tammie I'd be .. when u first walk out the doors of our school there is a huge parking lot , then a field on one side for base ball then a huge play ground on the other side.. it's the town park .. with everything. Swings merry go round slides . All of it. .. I decide to walk all the way over to the park. there are about 10 benches and I already want to sit .. i think that dance took more out of me then I thought it did. Or maybe the melt down did .. not so sure anymore .. I'm so lost I don't even remember the walk over to the park .. I just remember the swings were closest to me so I put my bags down and just plop down in the swing . My phone has buzzed 20 times in the past hour.. so I check it .. he has text me 17 times . And Tammie has text me three times .. she is asking where I am. I text her back and tell her I'm at the park . When she arrives 20 mins later I'm in full sobs again. . She just sits down next to me in the other swing. .. I look up and tell her he's cheating on me .. she says no way .. Melanie he loves u so much .. that boy is obsessed with u . U should have Sen him when u got done singing .. that boy was so dam proud of u .. I could see him almost tear up .. I can see how much he loves you. . Why can't you. ? Everyone sees this but you... I show her my phone and the fb post and the comments .. she says that doesn't prove anything. , I mean it's wrong for him to talk to his ex that way ... but dam Mel I love you girl .. my phone buzzed 6 more times while Tam is holding it .. she says Mel answer him ... I say Tammie do u remember when we first met , we use to come up here to this park , we use to run around playing on these swings and the slides . And those monkey bars. And the teeter totter .. I stand up and tell her come let's go .. I jump on the teeter totter and she gets on the other side. We start this thing it's a breezey day so our hair is blowing in the wind. And we laugh so loud ...