Right Kind Of Wrong

we fight to make up.

When I come out the bathroom in towel and robe over Said Towel. I walk toward my door but see jay holding the big wood stick that keeps the glass patio doors locked down by his leg ..he announces that he's just trying out .. he's laughing . I never Crack a smile . I've been sobbing all fucking day and he wants to joke !! This boy ain't seen my mean side yet. But he bout too!!! I keep going on in to my room . Where I get dressed in the most baggy sweat pants I can find and huge t shirt and two pairs of socks. .. it had gotten cool after the sun went down .. and I was in such Lil clothes .. the dance out fit was tiny to say the very least .. I didn't change out of it like a had planned to. I brush my hair ,and put on deodorant and perfume like I do every night. After my shower .. I walk into the dining room , and on to the kitchen .. I make a plate ,Rick made a huge chef salad ..it looks amazing! ! I'm starved ! I make Tammie a plate too. And grab us some Pepsi I tell her to come on. We go to the living room and sit down to eat. An hour later Joe has pick Tammie up and I'm laid out on the couch like so tired. I don't even wanna walk to my bedroom. And I don't think I wanna sleep there no way. Everyone has left. Even Rick .he had to pick mom up .her car is messed up .so he's fixing .but took her to work so he has to pick her up ..I'm watching Dallas cowboy cheer leaders .and thinking to myself me and Tammy wanted to be on the Cheer squad. . Lol .. .. jay walks in the living room and says come to bed with me .. and just the way he said that caused that super tight feeling in my tummy .. I look up at him and go to say something super nasty .. but he says DONT .. I mean it Melanie just don't. I am not going to keep fighting with you , either u get up on ur on and come to bed with me or I'm gonna pick you up and take u .... . ..... tight belly tight belly. ....... .. on I gave you a chance ! He said ..as he swoops down lifts me in his arms and starts walking to the room. I just lay my head down on his chest .. I'm way to tired to fight anymore .. when he reaches the bed he lays me down and says scoot over baby .. he turns the lights off ..pitch black ! He crawls in behind me and wraps his arms around me .. he says I get it .I've disrespected you. I'm so very sry .I've will never happen again. We are both still learning how all this go's . Please forgive me. .. I shake my head yes . He says baby I don't like these clothes u have on .. can I take them off. . I'm so tired jay I really don't think I can do this tonight. .. I tell him . He says you don't have to do anything . I'll do it all. He rolls me to my back and begins to take off all my clothes.. each piece he removes I feel my belly tighten ... and he kisses every part of me that he takes clothes off . When he Dips down to kiss me there ... I freak .I stop him and I'm wide awake now .. he crawls back up to my face ..and whispers did I do something wrong ?I say no , but he hasn't moved .. I'm just not there .... I say . He says that's OK baby .. he starts rubbing my belly making the s shapes again he says I love you baby . I sorta mumble I love you too. He says I hope you do. I say I do jay. He starts kissing me softly .. his tongue is so soft like velvet or silk or something .. he hand is still making s shapes on my belly .. it's tingling. I know I'm getting there. . I think he does too ... he takes my hand and places it on his ... out side of under wear .. I sorta freak a Lil in my mind. I have never ever ... he places his hand on top of mine and teaches me how to do this. I'm mortified! ! Like my face is buried in his chest .. even tho I know he can't see my face I still can't .. he takes his hand off mine and put it back on my belly in that dip and presses down I squeeze him hard and he makes this sound of pure bliss and takes a deep breath I know he likes .. so I do it again. . He is lost ! He pushes down one more time and I come up off the bed a Lil .. his hand disappeared. . Like not on me or the bed. I soon know what he is doing. He's naked .. I place my hand on his chest and puts it back on him. NAKED HIM .. it feels so soft like the skin is so soft .. he is hard .. but the skin feels so soft. Why does this surprise me so much .... he puts his hand between my thighs and begins to rub my thighs on the inside. This is different. But it gives me time to get to know his friend better .... he takes his time getting to the part of me that I'm screaming for him to ... when he does it takes me by surprise just how much I've come to love this .. it's the best part of sex .. the preshow !! When he rolls over on top of me he says I love you so much Melanie ... I say I love you too. For the next 20 mins. I think he said I love you 40 times .. when he was laying beside me panting he said don't be mad at me no more please.... I say ..OK .. moments later he says baby tell me..