Right Kind Of Wrong

obsessed with each other

I wake up to Jay kissing my neck , he whispers I love you baby in his darken room voice .. I look at the clock it's 3:33am he is rubbing my ass and pulls me closer to him. I can tell he wants me . He starts undressing me slowly.. when I'm naked ,he starts rubbing down my thigh ,his breathing has changed . He whispers pleeeassse baby , I immediately know where this is going .. I'm not scared tho. Why am I not scared , normally I'm still so scared of these moments . For some reason im not ... he's kissing my neck and nuzzling he's breathing sorta fast , I say ok.. he looks up at me even tho he can not see me it's pitch black in this room . He whispers .. you want me to ? I say yes.. he starts kissing those feather light kisses down my neck ,chest ,belly ... now my nervous system has sorta kicked in .. it's a strange sensation in a good way .just nothing I've ever experienced. .. I'm really into this but still nervous. . When he comes back up to my face he kisses me like full on tongue ,in a seriously passionate way.. he's really breathing now ... he puts his hand where his mouth had just been and go's straight in .. it's like the most incredible feeling ever , I realize I love this .. like LOVE this .. he knows too. He says I love you so much baby .. I'm panting and can't even talk .. I try but I think it sounds more like heavy breathing .. he says I mean it baby. I'm so blissed out at this very moment I can't really speak .. he takes it to another level.. and feel myself holding on to him for dear life .. he stops and takes his clothes off when he comes back to me he runs his hand over my hand which is still gripping the blanket tight .. I release the blanket and he puts my hand on him .. there .. I do exactly what he showed me . And he's holding me tight ,I know I'm doing this right. He rolls over on top me .. he pulls my knees up to my chest ,, it's a different feel completely he's sorta sitting up in front of me and just holding my knees .. I'm loosing it .. I've never ever felt so good. I need him close to him. I pull him down to me ,and he says are you OK .. that makes it a thousand % better and my head go's straight back .. .... when we both have come back to earth. . He's laying on top of me still ,his head on my chest .. both of his hands are on the side of my rib cage on both sides he's rubbing his thumbs back and forth. . Slowly. . He's content . I'm glowing .. this is love ... when I wake the next morning Jay is spooning behind me his face to the back of my neck .. I can feel his breath .. and hear that faint sound he makes when he's really sleeping good .. I haven't moved I hate to wake him. I'm never more in love with him then in these moments when I know he's so comfortable and sleeping this good with me .. I know for certain right now I'm deeply in love with him. I want this to last .. I make a promise to me self I'm gonna really try to make this work ..no more attacking him or fighting with out knowing all the facts .. I have to pee so bad ... I try to slip out of his grip .. he grumbles in his sleep voice .. omg he could get me to rob a bank with this voice .. he grumbles don't go baby.. I say Jay I have to pee..he says no u don't. . I laugh . Baby pleeeassse I say .. he says no like a 2 yr old .. he's being all pouty. Pouty,morning voice Jay is like the sexiest thing on planet earth .. Jay ..he's got a death grip on me .. he's kissing my cheek ..like these feathers lite pecks ... baby I have to pee so bad. He puts his hand right there and I seriously think I'm gonna have my first orgasm... that's a sensation like non other .. his breathing had changed .. he says it's a way stronger feeling huh.. I'm shocked he knew what that would do to me... he knows way too much about sex.. every single move he makes is on purpose and works so well.. this makes me think he's had too many partners .. which makes my libido take a serious nose dive .. I tell him to please let me up .. before I pee on him... he let's me go ..