Right Kind Of Wrong

you can't cover a lie with a lie

When I walk in the house Jay is sitting on the couch ,he says ur really late . I say we went to eat , it took them for ever to get our food out .. Jay says it's 1:30 in the morning. I say you wanna come see my car ? He says ok .. i turn the outside light on and Jay is walking around my car ,he says you Been shopping for your car . It looks good . I say yep I got a few things at the mall, Jay is looking at the front plate . I say James put that on for me . Ain't it cute .. he says Tammie boyfriend? Yep . I lied .. I swear I lie so much now. It's so crazy. It makes me wonder am I really like this or do I just not wanna be in this relationship anymore .. like what's really going on.. Jay has opened every door and the hood he's checked every inch of my Car out. He says u need gas . I look at him .huh? He says u need to out some gas in ur car babe. Oh I look at the gas gage and it's like on the red E. I tell Jay I know nothing about cars .or how to put gas in it .. he smiles .Jay says we will go put gas in ur car tomorrow I'll show u how .. OK I say. We lock my car up and go inside . I'm tired . I lock the house up and turn off the lights. I walk to my room and put down my bags and my purse I see the vs bag and I need to hide that .. I ask Jay will you please grab me a bottle of water from the frig .. he walks out the room and I grab said vs bag and stuff it in another bag and out them in the closet .. he can not find that . Lies , secrets , sneaking around with other guys , dancing on the bar 6 nights a week now. . Wow . I guess I've become the worst person .. and it don't sit well with me .. I'm not one who does these things . Ugh I'm really exhausted. I'm taking my clothes off when Jay walks back in the room .. he says here , hands me my water .. I'm looking threw my dresser for bed clothes , I take out my lavender spaghetti strap cotton tank and the super short ,shorts that match .. it's skimpy but really cute . I like this .. I take a shower and get dressed . I'm brushing threw my hair ,when Jay says so what all did u do tonight , I missed you . I say I went with ur dad it took us hours to get my car , then I went to grandpa's to show him he loves my car , then u went by zare to show her , then I went to the mall to show Tammie , then we went to eat , and now I'm home . Jay is leaned up on the bed he's looking at me like I just slaughtered his pet pig... fuck he knows ... I stand and walk to the closet I have to find some clothes for tomorrow I have my first interview with my school . I have to look good . The interview isn't till 4pm so I can sleep in a Lil ... Jay says u was with Tammie and her friend all night ... I turn and snap on Jay. I'm not sure what came over me ..but this moment was unexpected and malicious! !! JUST WHAT ARE YOU ASKING ME JAY ? HUH .CUZ AS I SEE IT YOU LIED TO ME ..YOU SAID YOU WERE AT UR GRANDPAS HOUSE WHEN I KNOW DAM WELL U WASNT BECAUSE I WAS . AND WHEN I TALK TO YOU AND U SAID U WERE THERE I DROVE BACK BY THERE AND UR CAR WASNT THERE .. Jay gets off the bed he's standing in front of me ..he says I wasn't with my ex .. he shows me the pic ,yeah I really hate smart phones ..fuck me !! I can't do shit with out a pic ending up on social media! !! The pic is me hugging him outside the mall ..OK maybe I can spin this . Jay I saw him ,showed him my car and hugged him bye . Ur always acting like I'm the worst person .. Jay says here Melanie .. there is 28 more pics ... WTF?? are you having me followed? Or is this ur fuckin ex ... again . He said no not her . My friend saw you two at the mall , just you two .u were not with Tammie ! Actually I was at first. I ran into Matt and he walked around with me ,because Tam ditched me .. I'm looking at these pics close .. they got pics of us in vs .. and Matt handing me the small bag ..