Right Kind Of Wrong

friday

Sitting in class ,so ready to get home so I can go to kc house .. this is my weekend to get away from all of it .. I'm so glad I'm feeling better !! Two more hours then I'm out. I need to go pee .. in the girls bathroom my phone buzzes. It's Jay ! Hey baby I'll pick you up from school. Me : OK ! Jay : I'll see ya soon my love .. as I'm walking to the back parking lot Sam yells wait up Lil momma .. he ask can I give u a ride home ? Actually Jay is here today , he's all up in arms that I'm spending the weekend with kc I'm staying at her dad's house in Bartlett till Sunday I say .. Sam has this look , he says need a break ? Yes ! I say. He says trouble in paradise? I say no , just been so busy lately with all this ,I motion around the school . He says oh yeah u do way too much for this place .he laughs .. I see Jay sitting in his car , he don't look too happy . Sam says I'll see ya sweetheart. . I hug him bye and walk to the car . I get in and hug Jay he says you ready? Yep. We walk in the door of our house and Jay pulls me straight to the bedroom. He's all over me. He says I'm gonna miss you baby I say I'll miss u too. He's taking my clothes off .. I should have known this is why he's not at work ..which is insane because we just did this last night , he's being so clingy . I'm not leaving for that long. And I won't even be that far away .. just like 30 mins.. but I let him get this outta his system. He's trying so hard , too hard. It seems. Don't get me wrong he's great and I love him .but I need to get a shower and get ready . He looks at me and says you want me to stop ? I shake my head no . But I kinda wanted to say yes .. what's wrong with me ? I just wanna be a teen for a weekend. I just wanna be carefree and have fun. All the responsibility is getting in my nerves .I just wanna be the kid I am .. Jay is making love to me and my mind is so far outta this bed ... he says baby ? I look up in a daze .. he says I love you .. I say it back. When we are done , we get in the shower . I ask him what his plans are for the weekend. He says stay him and miss you .. oh good lord ! He's pouring it on thick .. but guilty is not in my nature !!! I'm going and I'm gonna do teen stuff ! I'm shaking up with him like I'm a dam slacker and hoe... yet I'm the most responsible person I know !! I just wanna be a KID for this weekend . It's too much to ask for .... when kc arrives I've gotten all done up ,makeup, hair , clothes . I look Uber cute .. I've packed all my stuff including my blanket .. I'm ready to go .. I introduced kc to Jay and told him I'd see him Sunday night .. he smiles at both of us kisses me and says OK baby .. when we get in her car she fans her face ,, he's gorgeous! ! And u live with him. Wow. I smile hard. .. she says we are going to eat first what do u want ? I don't know whatever u want. She says let's go to chili's ! Awesome we walk in and put our name on the list we sit and wait .. we are whispering about Jay and her bf .. we giggle like high school girls , oh wait I am a high school girl !! This is good. When we get called to a table I'm walking behind the hostess I look up and see my ex .. oh fuck me !! He's with his gf and another couple .. yep we are seated right by them. I've known his gf for years . She spots me quick ... hey girl she stands up and hugs me. He says hey ! I talk to them for a while ... his gf has no idea we cheated behind her back for 6 mons. No ! I'm not proud of that .. kc and I sit down at our table order our drinks and look at the menu .. I can feel him staring at me .. kc is going on and on about how much fun we will have this weekend I'm so ready !! My phone buzzes I know it's Jay ,but I'm on my time for now so I don't even look .. I'm kinda unhappy with him. I think this afternoon was about him trying to make me feel bad and stay home .. nope! ! I've decided I need me time . Don't mean I don't love him..